I am crushed beneath your
sightless hatred
Trembling from fear, shame…
Do I disgust you so…that you’d raise you hand
Till’ I lay patterned with blood
Guilt gilded breath ripped from me
I lie here laced with imperfection
Tears, frosted pathways
On ashen white, lifeless skin
Weeping , knowing I cannot be myself
On this forsaken world
I clutch a rose,
Miniature spears in the form of thorns
Bring to light memories…
Of those you burnt, killed aeons past
Guilt of SIN
I was born a child of Sodom…
Then,
I would have lost my life to your abhorrence
I endeavour for a reflection of myself
In vain…
An image many won’t understand
…to play a part
In a tragic romance,
Actors beautiful, different
A shadowed page boy spellbound by
The elegant prince
…purity condemns them
But even through pain,
They found comfort through each other,
Silken ringlets entwined, ribbons tied
Kissed in empty vanilla fields,
Glittering laughter ringing out as childish games
Lightened their worries
Eyes locked in adoration, hands woven gently
The boy protected, safe, warm
Sighing, nestling amongst flowers
Pressed against the other to drive away nightmares
As night fell they gazed up at stars,
Completion found
They were found at dawn,
Hung whilst burning
Love forever frozen in untainted water
Scattered roses hiding their broken forms
Perhaps love is denied to me...
It seems so impossible,
...the reality would overwhelm me
A kiss drive me to uncontrollable shaking
Even a touch leave trembling
I feel unwanted...ugly
Please don't let me be alone forever...
I'd give so much...please...
Perhaps love is denied to me...
It seems so impossible,
...the reality would overwhelm me
A kiss drive me to uncontrollable shaking
I feel unwanted...ugly
Please don't let me be alone forever...
I'd give so much...please...
I know whilst the others find love,
I will stay hidden in the corner, shattering mirrors
while they brush lips and coerce the dark away
I will be veiled with it
For children like me are rare
All possibilities are beyond my reach…
I will fail all auditions...
Author notes
This is a strange poem....it wasn't completely a rant so I actually showed more complex language and stuff...same theme pretty much...sorry..I keep thinking about it...It's based on I dream I had where I was in a world like that but things went wrong like the poem like a nice dream/nightmare. Anyways, I hope you like... 
Written April 20th, 2006
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i love this!!! absolutely amazing! your imagery and your word choice just blew me away!!! its one of the best poems i ever read!!! absolutely fantastic job!!!
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Tender and Sad
This is a GREAT piece of writing, it reminds me of how The Phantom in 'Phantom of the Opera' must feel, because he thinks he's too ugly to be seen let alone loved, so he lives his entire life in the depths of a theatre.
However, that is a complete work of fiction, and, if this poem is personal to you, however unattractive you are feeling, no human should worry about never being loved, because there is a whole populartion of people out there who could fall in love with you - ALL with different tastes and attractions, so although you may not find yourself nice to look at, there is bound to be someone else out there who thinks you're the most beautiful thing on Earth. Really it just takes finding that person to make you feel attractive. I'm sixteen and I know how it feels to believe that you'll never find someone like that until 6 days ago I found out that somebody I find extremely attractive fancies the pants off of me and has asked me out! And it's not just about how you look, you know... Beauty is much stronger on the inside - you could end up in a really unhappy marriage with someone really good-looking, because they were mean, or selfish, or didn't have a sense of humour or anything. And you obviously are beautiful on the inside - one can tell that by reading your poetry! So don't give up hope; you have YOUR WHOLE LIFE to find someone, and there is someone out there for everyone!
Some bits I like...
'crushed beneath your
sightless hatred',
'Guilt gilded breath ripped from me' and
'laced with imperfection'
SUPERB imagery!
I love the verse
'But even through pain,
They found comfort through each other,
Silken ringlets entwined, ribbons tied
Kissed in empty vanilla fields,
Glittering laughter ringing out as childish games
Lightened their worries
Eyes locked in adoration, hands woven gently
The boy protected, safe, warm
Sighing, nestling amongst flowers
Pressed against the other to drive away nightmares
As night fell they gazed up at stars,
Completion found' it is so fairy-tale-like, so traigically beautiful, really gorgeous, vivid description.
I like the idea you've used of life being like a movie, 'I will fail all auditions' etc.
The last verse also has the tone of a desperate cry for help because of all the language and elipses.
BRILLIANT write!!
And don't forget that as one of God's creations, you are BEAUTIFUL!!
Love Sarah xx
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This is sad... ._. Yet the love shines through it somehow, and makes it almost hopeful. Almost. ._.
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AWW!!!! I love you!!
Love is out there for you. You're only 16.. You have 20 years to find love sweetie! I know how you feel though. This poem was so incredibley visual with some beautiful language used.
Never stop writing!
I love you always, and i'm always here for you. A test, call, email, IM away! I be your river hun. Always.
Moon Bless.
Kenaz.
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