Where my stories end

I am tired of always being second best
Everybody wonders why I'm so depressed
My thoughts, my words are suppressed
I don't want to be like all of the rest
But I wish I hadn't fallen from grace
I always have to feel so out of place
I maybe hide to have some space
So just for once I could finish the race.
So please don't hate me when I cry
Everything is wrong, the earth, the sky
I never want to have to say goodbye
I wish for once I felt fresh and alive.
I know it is my fault that is she is dead
That is why I feel so black inside my head
For all the hatred I get, the more blood I shed
I wish I could lie forever alone in my bed.
To not have to fight for every thought I share
In hell, in heaven, I shall see you there
So do not pretend to me that you care
For tomorrow I may as well hide the skin I tear.
I am not proud but I am not ashamed
That I cannot get rid of this pain
So my sweet, I will try again
To leave this world and hold you today.

So goodnight my friends
I am sorry to say
That this is where all my stories end.