Gramma

Today marks a horrible day
of your death of two years.
It gets harder the pain, it does,
and even more harder to see the tears.

Exactly two years ago I remember
that day like it was just yesterday.
God pulled too fast and left me
I don't see how you couldn't of stayed.

I can still hear you calling me
and still see your smiling face.
And lately I've been crying a lot,
in the most saddest of a place.

I'll take this time to let you know,
that this is for you.
And to catch up on time I'll explain
all the things that I've been through.

Since I was 14 I haven't been in one place
for more than a year.
Life is getting way harder for me
and nothing ever seems to be clear.

You were right all along,
daddy did never care.
I was so stupid not to believe you,
I guess life was never fair.

I've fallen in love and it's amazing,
even through the pain I feel.
I feel so much pain but with him
it seems to always heal.

I wish you could meet him
because I'm sure you'd love him too.
And I'll never forget you anymore,
no matter what I go through.

I've found my soul mate through a friend,
her name is Andrea and I'm sure you already know -
that she's helped me through things I couldn't do,
and brought through feelings that I needed to show.

She's been there through everything -
and she was the only person to be there for me.
I'm sure you already know these things though
as you are looking down on us to see.

Two nights ago I dreaded this day,
knowing I'd probably be a mess.
I was and I couldn't stop crying for the life of me,
and Steven seen I was more than stressed.

We talked about memories of you
and the waterworks came down so hard.
Today I went to see you again,
and I buried you a card.

Right now I'm crying and for so long,
I tried to make it so I wasn't sad.
But that never works because I still need you,
and I can't help but to get so mad.

I told Steven all about you,
and he knows how much you meant and still mean to me.
He thinks you are such an inspirational person,
and that's how it will always be.

I can't believe how dumb I was,
you have no idea what daddy puts me through.
That every night I worry where I'm living next,
and he tells me he has his own family too.

I've blocked this pain for too long,
and now I think a little is showing through.
And I know you're in a better place,
but you have no idea how much I miss you.

I'll never forget you anymore and I promise,
that soon you'll see me.
I love you so much and I miss you,
          forever, Katie