Sweet Addiction

have I only touched the surface
have I set my destiny
why must I do these things
what is wrong with me
can you answer that
I need some sort of relief
am I subconsciously
dealing with my grief
what's wrong with my head
can I be conformed now
is there any help for me
I have to stop somehow
the maker of my own demise
witness to others as well
am I destined for damnation
will I burn in hell
will I ever face the truth
these demons have me beat
although I hate to admit it
I'm destined for defeat
too lazy to stand and fight
too scared to let them win
once more I've gone and done it
I've let those demons in
such my sinful nature
to give in to the wrong
I'm reaching for your hand
I don't know for how long
I can't lost this battle
or the love I've finally found
I'm talking in desperation
but no one seems to be around
only screeching rings
deafening my ears
losing all I've gained
these, my constant fears
tell me how to stop it
there must be something...right
all I know to do
is hang on and hold on tight
regrets will haunt forever
sorry just isn't good
I let it all take over when
stronger I should've stood
I ask you, don't pass judgment
I'm not perfect, by far
I'll just have to wish
on every single star
that all the damage done
will all be over quick
and I'll have the necessary strength
so this addiction I can kick