We were only acquaintances really.
Not quite at the friendship level,
But not at all considered enemies.
We smiled in the halls,
Somewhat talked on the internet at night.
But I never spoke.
She was much prettier than I,
Much more popular than I ever wished to be.
More friends, better grades.
But that was only of what I could see.
And as I watched her that one morning,
I wondered silently where she was going.
But I never spoke.
I would hear the rumors,
But I would turn my head.
Why should I care?
Rumors are nothing more than made-up truths.
And I continued to talk to her,
Admire her for her brains and beauty.
But still I never spoke.
I wandered aimlessly one morning,
To the bathroom where she had gone.
And I couldn’t help but cry,
As I listened to her vomiting in that stall,
As I realized it was all true.
But as she walked out,
I quickly rubbed my eyes.
And still I never spoke.
And now I stand here at her funeral,
Listening to some guy speak,
Of all of the accomplishments she had made.
In my head I hear what the doctors said,
Malnutrition, too underweight, bulimic for too long.
And still, even after it’s over and done,
I do not speak.
Author notes
Written April 7th, 2006
In a list
A contest entry
- Best Poet On AP:Season:2:Round:1 by wakingdevil.
600 points, ended November 25, 2006, 38 entries
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this is a fantastic write! very powerful and emotional, it really makes the reader think. GReat job, congrats on getting this published. If the story is true, I'm sorry for your loss, your courage to write about it is phenomenal! <3
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Many congrats on getting this published!
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Beautiful
this is a very very beautifully written poem. If only is probably the question that plagues your mind and probably will for a long time. I really enjoyed this. Great job
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Hood WInk
Very controversial subject, I can definately agree on that one. It's often bad to not speak out as if something like this happens, we feel guilty for not saying anything or helping out. I've been in situations like this, though not to the extent of them dying. I hope that society will speak out more often in the future, though I know the chances of that are second to none, to be honest. Thanks for sharing your inspirations.
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wow good write, i was that girl in the stall once, hard position to be in for hte watcher im sure, wow good poem. beautiful piece of work -
oh ! great job! so true now a days!
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This was a really strong write and well executed.The flow was good and overall a great poem.Thanks for entering and best of luck
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We do not want to get involved, we feel as if it is not our place to speak. IF not us, then who? Why is it we look inside but feel nothing? Well written.
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Wow... what a sad but profound write. Just leaves the reader with sadness for your loss and letting those see this in the featured who might be able to relate to this as the afflicted or a loved one of an afflicted. Glad to see a piece like this featured! Good write, keep it up! Thanks for sharing this with everyone and lets hope people click on.... and absorb the message possibly even ... passing it on! A pleasure to read, thanks, ~Tia -
wow very emotional and thought provoking write...i agree with the others ....very sad but needs be said and read ..good luck
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oh my that is so sad. and again it deals with the real life situations. i'm really liking this would have preferred that she lived though. great piece.
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Wow, I don't even know what to say. I have never known anyone personally (at least to my knowledge) that suffered through anorexia or bullemia, but it is a very sad reality that faces a lot of girls. You wrote a very powerful poem, and even though it may be too late for this girl, it's not too late for another who might read this. Thank you for sharing this amazing write.
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Why did you not speak?
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Very profound piece of work.It was so powerful that it left me speechless. It had a good flow to a sad ending.
Good work.
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this is amazing! it reminds me a lot of the last two poems that I've written and two other poems that i wrote a while back about a friend of mine who i lost to anorexia/bullemia. it's such a sad disease and i love the repetition of the words "but i never spoke".
amazing write, keep it up!
~Kami
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this is a very powerful write. you do an excellent job of tying it all together with the lines but still i never spoke. it also covers a topic in the problem areas for teens in this (my) generation. i once knew a girl like this but she survived. good luck with every thing!!!!
Awesome write!!!
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wow, this was a piece with a powerful message to be heard, thank you so much for sharing it with me, am so glad you featured it as I most likely would not of had the opportunity to read it otherwise. Very nice job here, not only do you shine with talent, but your ability to send a message without actually preaching is outstanding!
This is surely one to be most proud of dear.
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This is an amazing write! I loved it. It gave me goosebumps! Beautiful, but so sad... Good job. Keep it up.
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It is hard to say anything at a teenager level... you never know who will believe you or who will even hear you. Never feel like you didn't say anything because in actuality you just did!! Thank you.
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This is a great write! I keep clicking on poems waiting for my attention to get caught, and invariably it hasn't in awhile, but this drew me in, the build was excellent, the story, very good. A lot of lessons here, and very good ones at that. Thanks for sharing!
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This was very well written & a very sad peice. I liked this because it showed a lot of emotion. You have quite some talent & I hope you never stop using it. Thanks for entering & good luck.
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Very well written. The sadness of this piece comes through and also a feeling of regret. It addresses what could be considered a 'problem' many of us have faced. Excellent job of capturing emotion and expressing it to the reader.
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This was very good.The emotion is captured brilliantly.Watching someone so popular destroying themselves and not having words to say.This is very deep and sad.I could see the whole image clearly.
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Oh, how sad a loss, you wrote this so well. It really makes a strong statement against eating disorders. If we all would speak up when we suspect someone needs help. This would be a good poem used to help someone with this problem.
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So awful. I like the repetition, it gives it such a stark feeling. It is so sad what society can do to people.
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Wow, this was a really effective poem! Seriously, I like the way you've written it. Your use of repetition of the phrase ' I never spoke' really made the situation personal and powerful, and something I could relate to on some level, whether I am proud of it or not. Well done with this, awesome write!
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Well you spoke loud and clear here..AWESOME painting of an emotional state that fortunantely everyone doesnt have to go through...But powerfully pictured in this work..
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Wow. This is beyond words actually. I've read a lot of poetry, I have. I believe that this poem here, is the very first that actually gave me chills. It was well written, I think you deserve a trophy for sure with this poem. Really words can not justify how well you've done.
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Incredible. I love when people use themes or phrases to get the point across. In this case it was "But I never spoke" I don't have any negative comments because this is a very strong piece and well thought out. Excellent job.
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This is a beautifully written scary poem. I've known a few people with eating disorders. They are serious illnesses. I don't think some realize how serious they are until they read something like your wonderful poem...to know the disesases can be fatal. Thank you for sharing your emotions!! Warm Regards...vivela
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wow.... this kind of hits home for me.. i lost a freind to bulimia awhile back.. It's a very good write.
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Very well written, such a sad and tragic situation. Very powerful impact this has. Hopefully it will open some eyes and allow us to see beyond the surface. All of us hide things about ourselves and never see ourselves as others do. I hope you can find peace by writing about it like this and making us aware. Great job. Thank you for sharing.
Jeannie D
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Very Good
Very sad write but the poem is very well written and show that you cared. To bad for her that she end her life that way. May the best of the best wishes be with you in all through your years and God bless you. -
AWESOME
OMG this was really moving I have tingles running down my arm from reading this. This was an excellent write. HD -
Wow this was an amazing piece
i loved it
very nice work
a difficult subject to tackle but you done it well
all the best
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Wow. I seriously hope it's not true. But if it is you shouldn't blame yourself. Some people are seriously dumb sometimes and don't realize what they are doing to themselves.
This was extremely deep and emotional. Wonderful job.
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what an excellent poem,very well written but very sad.you've written a very powerful piece here on a harrowing subject,well done and accept my applause,
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this a really powerful poem. and sad, thanks for writing it!
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You've Caputured It!
Wow...this is good...very good. I am bulemic, but im getting help because i've realized that nobody is perfect.
It was my friends in my life, on Ap, and poems, that helped me come to my senses, and i want to thank you for writing this and sharing it, we need to have hope, and we need to have people pulling for us to urge us on! Thanks for this write! It truely is amazing, and so sad.
-Keep Writing!
-Thanks For Sharing!
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it's sad to think really, even if someone's life seems perfect, there is quite the chance that it is not even close and on those days you think that your life is so bad, it's really not. this poem makes me sad because, of the times that i have been scared to help someone and all of the sudden that someone could be gone. thank you for posting this though, you are brave for that.
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oh my friend...but the volumes you speak now...it's my sincerest wishes this is something you have not personally encountered, but are merely aware of the issue at hand and the great need to educate the masses this is a great write i enjoyed it immensely kudos to you for turning on a light for so many that were unaware before many blessings to you keep up the great work
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Amazing! Your poem is beautifully written and flows so well. It keeps the readers attention as it is written in a down to earth story telling tone. The message you send is one we are all familar with. We wonder, but do not speak of personal things. Great, caring write. Peace be with you.
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Scary as hell. In the beginning, that sounded like the person I wrote Dear Shady for--and no, I'm still not telling you who it is, because I'm evil like that. Anyway, after it turned into your normal type of poetry, I liked it, although I'd rather not be reminded of what I could have turned into in going to B.S. instead of A.H. Yes, I abreiviating because I dunno how spazztic you are about names and stuff online. I think you could have made the ending different--like made her speak, instead of not speaking, just to give it more effect, but whatever. Overall, nice job, and it got the message across really well.
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Glad you're back, though if this is true, sorry
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oh wow this is so sad. but a very true topis, that is left unspoken many times. if only people would speak up and even listen. maybe lives could be saved, this is such a great write, very meaningful. yet so sad because it is over looked by most. thanks for writing this, you made have saved a life here. God bless.
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Wow, I am impressed. Something that hits a chord in me. Whats sad is things like that happen alot. Its a good point of view, like the other end of the stick. I hope that people thats are in that very situation now get to read this and realize that you shouldnt be silent. Wonderful piece, and beautifully written my friend
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oh wow, that was so sad! its terrible that so many cannot see the true beauty in themselves and feel the need to do such unhealthy things to try and make themselves 'perfect'-looking, something that is virtually impossible. all one can do is accept oneself as the perfect 'you'! this is definitely a problem in schools across the country and if someone ever told me that they had this problem i'd do everything in my power to help them. i hope you find peace and that no one else will ever have to suffer as you and that girl have. thanx for the great work, it flows very nicely and speaks of very deep emotion. best wishes!
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This was great, was it true, did you know this girl, was she bilimic? If so sorry for her and you. This was great and I was caught by the title and I just couldn't pass it up, so now you know how to get my attention, throw in a good title to go with it. Great write, peace be with you.
See you around the deep end,
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i have chills after reading this from you. bulemia and anorexia are so awful for anyone going through it as the one suffering from the disease its self or as a person who loves them. i often think it is worse than drug addiction. you have done an awesome job on this. my only suggestion is that you put she after where in this sentence:
I wondered silently where was going.
very awesomely written. viyanna r langager
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Second stanza line seven I believe you may have meant to add "she" but forgot.This is well written and flowed well.The irony of seeing what is on the outside but being unable to see what is on the inside is chillingly revealed here.Bulimia is a secret illness.I tend to think of it as " I bully me" that is what the person who has this is doing after all.I feel terribly sad for anyone who feels this way or who suffers from this,the fact that you could not speak you should not berate yourself for, neither you nor your friend could find the words to say, but your poetry has a voice which may be heard,well done,love and light,Yvette
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good job
wow thats a problem i know of i nmy school but i don't listen to the rumors because if some one wants to amit they have a problem to me then i'll help but it's non of my busniess lol but yea i understand completely great job keep up the great work i hope u feel better about the girl your talking about and i hope no one else you know dies like that
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