Just an empty shell
walking around in disbelief.
Repeating to myself,
why'd this happen to me?
I'm a good person
I'm a good girl.
I'm a good person
Am i no longer a good girl?
Screaming!
Pleading!
for it all to stop.
Screaming!
Pleading!
for it all to end.
Forced down on his passenger seat,
why'd he have to be so much stronger than me?
Pants to my knees,
underwear pulled down,
I tried to focuss on something,
but that something wasn't found.
I remember that day
no coulds, blue skies.
It would have been beautiful,
if it wasn't for that guy.
He pulled my hair,
jerked my head back.
He hurt me so badly,
I wonder, can I ever go back?
Will I ever be the girl I once was?
Joking, and laughing,
just loved to have a good time.
Or has he tained me,
left me forever scared of all guys?
Screaming, pleading,
take the memory away.
Screaming, pleading,
just erase that god forsaken day.
I want to be the same
I want to be me.
I want to be the same,
I want to be me . . . I want to be me.
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Written April 6th, 2006
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great emotion.... and great choice of words.... this is devistating....but you did a good job on writing this -
great imagery...i feel for you my love. i cant believe this has happened....and i mourn for your loss. but you will always be the same, beautiful, strong, delicate poet i have become to love. ♥ amy
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I'm almost at a lost for words when it comes to this poem. It so visual, and compaling to what victims such as this really go through mentaly and emotionaly. It's such a sad thing to even think about when you read or hear anything about this subject. This is truely a beautiful poem for such a sad and depressing subject. Good job. -
that was awesome, great desriptions, u can get ur life back, u should od a lot of talking to counclers and stuff theres tons of woman out there who have risen above it and u can too, your stronger, great job
happy easter!
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same here.. i'm glad that i'm still writing but i hate that something so heart felt and emotional had to come from this, you know... but right now i'm TRYING not to let what happened just take over my life and ruin me, but i really do feel like i have no idea who i am anymore.. i used to go out and have fun and now i'm getting asked out by guys and i'm scared and i keep turning all of them down because how do i know they all won't end up the same?? i dunno.. i know i need to get over it and move on, but damn, it's hard.
anyways, thank you so much for your comment... i'm going to try and keep writing about it until i feel like the horrible feelings are dying.
christina -
thank you so much for your comment... it was hard to write it all down and try to explain what a person goes through physically and emotionally.. but i tried.. so thank you very much for your comment, it was really appreciated.
christina -
Hey Christina, I love seeing your writings again but I hate that this wonderful piece had to come from such an awful thing. I know what you mean. I can relate pretty damn well and I know what it's like ot be afraid of guys..Keep up the good work and don't let these assholes ruin your wonderful self!
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This really hits where it hurts and explains wat ppl go through when this happens. Its amazing and i love it. Keep up the good work
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