Dear sweetheart,
I can pour out my soul just to express how much I deeply miss you and still my heart would not entirely be happy. I have a glacier in my heart that is so cold and only you can melt. But how could I ever find forgiveness when I have wounded the very heart that fed me love. I honestly thought you and I would always stick together; instead, we've become more like ice cream that is drifting away from its cone.
Sometimes we have to accept the bitterness of life and then learn how to cope with time. After all, you and I both know time reveals. I am at a lack of words and expressions to say what I really want to say, but I know for a fact every time I look in my rear view mirror; I will die with regret and remorse for I have wretched the very heart I love most. I surely wish I knew ahead of time what to do, that way; I would try to prevent myself from hurting the angelic you. I could care less about so many things in this life even my own flesh and bones as long as I know you are happy and that's my only truth.
I don't want to sit here grieving about the things I've lost in this life; instead, let me try to retrieve something I'm about to lose. If only I could crucify myself just to show how sorry I am for hurting you, I swear on my life I would. But even that wouldn't do you justice, for you would not be happy still. I wish I could expose to you my bleeding spirit and perhaps convince you into thinking otherwise, but reality is a b.i.t.c.h. Alas, life is like the wind that wanders wherever it pleases. I feel somewhat like Judas, a common death I do not deserve. And maybe the only way for me to really be happy is to sophisticate in my own coffin.
The pain I endure has no cure; it is like a cancer in my bone. Every time I try to make a move, I can feel my bones collapsing inside of my skin. I don't know how long I have left in this world to live but if I don't live to see tomorrow, I sincerely apologize from the core of my heart for I do love you and will always love you. As long as there is a little space in any little place, my spirit and my love for you will continue to live. Therefore, I love you unconditionally...
Yours truly, Mackintoch
I am so so sorry
A contest entry
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Comments
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I liked how it was formed like a letter
Howver, I think the word happy may have been a bit overused. It would be great if you replaced some of them with synonyms like blissgul, euphoric or riant.
I feel somewhat like Judas, a common death I do not deserve.
those would be my favorite lines. I love references to oth storys it takes poems to whole new levels
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Thank you for your deeply heartfelt entry, good luck in my contest, Josie
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This is a beautiful write, I hope you do well,
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Wow a outstanding write right from the heart shocking and full of emotions thank you for sharing and thank you for entering
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wow, this was amazing. i like the way i can feel your guilt and remorse flowing out of your word. good luck
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you still get me with the katieyanna series. i would have thought that after all this time, it would not be so relative to my life. yet, i still find myself inthralled each and every time i read one of these writes to her from you. i hope you and her can each find the forgiveness and the love that you desire and deserve. knowing how difficult this can be, my prayers are with you as always. viyanna rosemarie
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Aw, a very sad piece. I, too, could feel the guilt in your words, sorry you had to go through this, hope it worked out. Thanks for entering and good luck.
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Straight forward and straight from heart. I liked the openness and acceptance of guilt in your letter.
Best wishes and good luck,
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gosh i wish my bf would have wrote me something like this when he cheated on me.. =/
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Oh wow this was so beautiful I loved it soo much. You know past heartaches are like learning experiences... God gives you time to heal; you then learn from your past mistakes not to make it again and then.. when the right person is revealed to you and only will when you are ready you are the perfect man for the job...
this is my point of view.
write on...
and I will read on
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Yep, yep that's guilt right there. That was so sad. But that's definately guilt. Great write.
Thanks for entering,
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beautifulness it's amazing apology, I would take you back if I were her, you can tell that you put feeling into it and it's awesome.
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by the date I see this is a 2006 write. You are very expressive in your writing and shows through a little bit of the person you are now and are to be later in life... love comes and goes, it is one of life's hardest lessons to learn about and from, but I feel one should never give up their own life to prove love nor harm oneself, nor beg for forgiveness, if another allows this to happen then never was there true love by them either in the first place, only seeking a trophy of remembrance. to love is not to remember that what hurts but to heal wounds before they festers
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I felt this piece to be truly from the heart
I hope you are given a second chance that so few gets and hopwe your love will never fail her again for such a pain cant be healed twice
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How sad!!!!! I wish you could feel better. We all make mistakes we wish we had not, but if it were not for those mistakes we would never grow and change, we would never bloom into he flowers we become and we would never be the peopl we are today. It is nice to be sorry for our mistakes though. You have done a great job here, and i really enjoyed reading htis peice. Every thing you did with it made it a very great write. I really like the fact that you made it a letter to her, some times we all want o say things we can't and writting is our realse. Great write and good luck in the contest.
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This is beautiful. She's a very lucky girl. Truly. <3
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So heartfelt . . . .
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This is beautifully written with so much love and sadness expressed through your words. I agree that love can hurt and very often the ones we love the most are the ones that we hurt. The reverse is also true, for if we did not love someone so deeply then they could not hurt us as badly. Very well written. Good luck in the contest.
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That was a very apoligetic piece of work, Its seems full of your heart on every word you wrote. I wish you all the best, with your problem so good luck and good night.
P.s. Carry on with your wounderful work.
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I guess it's true,...we always hurt the ones we love, sometimes unintentionally, sometimes selfishly, but if we did not make mistakes there would be nothing to make us grow. We pick up the pieces the best we can in order to move on . It's strange I am reading yet another poem about unconditional love in the last two days...feels as if there's a message in it for me, too. A very heart felt read.
~ KL
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Wow, I've never read such a heartfelt apology. I can really empathize with your situation here and I really wish you all the best and hope that your heart will heal in time. Sometimes we must assess what the experience has taught us so that we can move on. I hope some comfort and an answer manages to enlighten your path. Excellent work
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i agree with you 100% love sometimes can be a bitch, and damn it hurt and true there is no cure for t he pain and the feelings we feel for the ones we love. good luck and may God bring happiness in your life.
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Hi I think this is a very common experience. You have written it very well. I don't think there is a solution sometimes to problems because life just gets in the way.
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I loved this...it's just beautiful
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this is very good man. I know how you feel... I just try to avoid love altogether... but I know I won't be able to run forever. So I might as well give up while I'm still ahead... but I can't bare the thought of losing someone again, as there is no cure for death. That is the only thing that won't change in this life. Everyone is bound to die someday. Ah well, never-the-less, very good poem, and good luck in the contest man.
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mm... I liked this poem, but it seemed to be more of... a letter. I understand that feeling, though, when you let someone down and they still don't trust you for a while... but you just have to leave them alone after you've said sorry, for saying "I'm sorry" twice isn't going to help more than it would have once. But, nice job, I hope this person regains your trust.
Nice job. Thanks for your entry! I hope you find my contest fun, and I wish you the best of luck
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Indeed emotional piece you have here. That thing called Love...again you continue to shoe Deep emotion for this person Unconditional Love when all else has failed.
Sad and loving...all in one.
Gr8 write you are truly a Genuine Romeo
Piff
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So tender and love the use of all the metaphors...in the beginning, like ice cream and then like a cancer...It is true that we do hurt the ones we love, even when we are aware of it and continue to do it...Am sure this opened her eyes!
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This is an amazing write and you've conveyed across to me exactly what your author's notes said you did. This is a piece that i can whole-heartedly understand. Great write, good luck!
Shady Lane
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AWWW!! wow i have to say! This is really really good! It really reminds me of my situation with my boy. Well I love how you wrote it. It's very good and says alot. I hope things wroked out between you 2 after you gave this to her. I know if any boy gave somthing as great as this to me i'd melt. This is exceelent a well choosen gold
keep writing and good job.
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I think I have winner. But don't get your hopes up, you still have comp for first place. This is such an amazing peice. Have you ever went through this before? If not you have such a way in showing it. Even though it doesn't rhyme much, if at all, it is still in consideration for first place...I wish I could applaud it twice.
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We all do things to people in life that we regret, but you have been great enough to write this piece and acknowledge how you have behaved. I hope she sees this one day and the hurt is mended, you have written from the heart, no one could ask for more
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such an emotional write very wonderful use of words very sad yet loving well done
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Wow. This is absouletely beautiful. It is so sad...
great job in relaying your emotions. Well done.
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This was beautiful...really good writting I love how straight forward you were with you feeling and how you accept the fact that life is life and it picks and chooses how it pleases...again great piece and good luck in the contest
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wow i agree with your other comments - a very emotional, strong and powerful piece that i very much enjoyed reading and even though it was so so sad it was so beautiful. but I know for a fact every time I look in my rear view mirror I will die with regret and remorse for I have wretched the very heart I love most. - this line stuck me the most and i really hope you feel better about this person or that they have forgiven you... although if it is true, i find it odd that you have posted a piece like this as an appolgy should be a personal thing written to portray emotion not how tallened you are with words... but nethertheless thank you for entering my contest good write, well done and good luck in my contest!!!!!!!!!! love Ash -x-x-x-
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wow. this is powerful and very intense. its got a lot of emotion in it. good luck
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A beautiful and tender must read!!!!
Wow, Mr. Mackintosh, this is mighty power. Please tell me that you've given this to Kattieyanna. For as much pain and regret you are expressing in this beautifully penned write, I think you are deserving of her forgiveness. I do believe that in true love, forgiveness should always be the option to choose; if a sincere effort is made to never make the same mistake again. Being the romantic I am, if I were Kattieyanna, I would certainly choose this for myself. Life is much sweeter walking hand in hand with the one we love, regardless of his/her mistakes. After all, we're all imperfectly human; are we not?
This is beautiful! Good luck to you in the contest Many blessings and 
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~ Becky ~ aka Veronica Cross
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My dear Mr Mackintoch, you should place on this write NFW (Not For Work) I have had multiple associates ask me what is wrong as I cried in my chair. I bow to you kind sir. For the act of writing those words down must have been hard, but to post them for the world to disect with utmost cruelty, truely deserves respect. I salute you sir, for however much that means.
I appreciate your submission (and my klenex box).For love so harms -DAN- -
WOW I know i'm only 14 but i'v ben inlove once it sucks but love the poem
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and here i am again--i know you are going to think me obsessed with this kattieyanna series. i really am not a stalker type. these jsut have had my heart from day one.
ps--i still hope you give this to her. hand delivered would be nice.
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Oh this was so touching, and tragic! My heart goes out to you! I hope everything gets better for you..this was deeply moving!!
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i know i already commented on this. and you know why i always come back to this series so i do not need to explain myself. how i wish i could get a letter like this but it is not the case for me. you really have touched my heart with these writes to her. more than you can possibly know. in another time and another place, maybe i just will get my way. until then, i must keep my chin up.
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One of the most painful experiences in life happens when we hurt the ones we love with all our heart. Your letter exposes the fact that that was never your intention. Love is a powerful emotion, and long after a break-up, it is still there, clinging to the very fiber of our being. This poem drips with passion. Whenever I hurt someone close to me, the hardest person to forgive was myself. Forgive the pain you've caused or they caused you and get on with your life. Who know, once the healing begin, your lover may return to cushion your soul. A very beautiful, yet melancholy letter/poem. Your metaphors are stellar! The best to you in this challenge.
Much Love ♥
Renee 
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Awwwww.....
You seem so very sad and distressed! It sounds like you had a major fight with the very person you care about most and you are more than distraught about it. I'm sure that if this person is as wonderful as you think she is than she won't be able to do anything but forgive someone who cares about her so much and is truly sorry. I hope you give her this letter. I think she would appreciate it. You did good at expressing your heart here. Thanks for sharing with all of us here today!
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This is a most deep and heart rendering piece...
As for a critique, I only have a few grammatical ones
shown below:
I honestly thought you and I would be like crazy glue that would always stick together no matter what; instead, we've become more like ice cream that is drifting away from its cone.
But even that wouldn't do you justice, for you still would not be happy. I wish I could expose to you my bleeding spirit and perhaps convince you into thinking otherwise, but reality is a bitch. Alas, life is like the wind that wanders wherever it pleases.
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Life and Soul Sentence.
A powerful letter and so very tragic,and emotions are so deep and tender.For whatever reason you cannot be together it is obvious that you never meant to hurt this special person.I just hope she sees this letter and lives in hope and forgiveness. A gentleman,who writes deep from the heart.Lots of luck in the Contest.And don't be too hard on yourself.All the best.Elizabeth. -
Wow...
I think this is stunning.. really deep.
The only thing I can think of is;
I am lack of words and expressions
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i am gonna cry now
i hope you send this to her--better yet, pick a fresh floer yourself and hand it to her with this. i really want to cry as i read tis for i truly wis a certain stubborn person would have given a letter like this to viyanna. i suppose that since i am not katieyanna, i will never get one. i do not think he cared enough to give me this anyway. sorry. you already know how i feel about the series on her and why it affects me so. viyanna r langager -
very good
Deep feelings and very touching.
Nice and deep thoughts.
Keep on writing!I liked it.
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