Rain

lying awake
here in the dark
love sleeping beside me

I feel the pangs of loss
the loss of familiarity
the loss of sadness
the loss of despair
the loss of my sick and broken life

but the brokenness I miss
it was mine
comfortable
secure

and now it's gone
I just have the memories
to contemplate in the night
in the dark
all alone

so close, and yet so far

I listen to the rain
pouring, constant
the rain is so serene, so sad
cold but comfortable

the sound wraps around me
holding me close
it's the closest to those days
that I ever get

and now
the sunshine is so real
so much better
warm love surrounds me
holds me ever closer
won't let me fall

so I listen to the rain
watch it fall, so constant and beautiful
and all I can do is remember