The day had come, my big day
Adrenaline racing, heart beating loudly
Today I would take the next step forward
Progressing in my life’s journey
There I stood with all of my friends
Preparing for the graduation ceremony
My blue eyes glancing all about the room
Looking for the woman who had brought me life
My heart beating faster and faster
Not because of the excitement
But because of the worrying...
Choking back the tears that began to form
Hearing my name be called from the front
Walking towards center stage, eyes still searching
Looking at every face, desperately hoping
Yet alas, she did not appear for this time in my life
But I remember
Butterfly kisses after bedtime prayer; sticking
little white flowers all up in her hair.
Walking away, feeling defeated, crushed
Making a phone call, "Where are you?"
The response, "I thought you were walking home"
A short pause... “Today was my graduation..."
Tears cannot change what was done so long ago
Fake smiles cannot hide the pain from true friends
Telling me that you love me will not fill the gap in my heart
I will always remember... the day my mom missed my graduation
Author notes
Lines in italics are from Bob Carlisle's song "Butterfly Kisses"
Now, I'll explain this poem as I'm sure a lot of people are confused. This poem is about my fifth grade graudation. This happened 6 years ago, but I still remember the pain I felt that day, although this poem might have been better if I had written it on that day. I haven't written many "story" form poems so I hope this was good. The lyrics were played that day. Everytime I hear them they bring back the painful memories of that day.
Now I have moved on. This was a while ago and I forgave my mom for this day. It wasn't that important, but to me when I was in 5th grade, it was terribly important.... Thanks for reading!
Written April 3rd, 2006
In a list
A contest entry
- Graduating Class of 2006 by Jujubee.
300 points, ended April 25, 2006, 8 entries
Silver trophy winner
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This one is so hurt filled and powerful....you took this one past all the levels I did..this poem was just as powerful and love filled...unrequited love of a child to it's mother...wonderfully penned. Keep writing this was tagicly beautiful.
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It was a while ago so I've forgiven her and moved on, but the memory is still there... I'm suprised I was able to write this poem based on feelings years ago. I was even more suprised when you gave me the silver trophy! Thank you so much for your comment and for the trophy
--Tim -
Oh wow... this is amazing, and gives me chills. This actually brought tears to my eyes. I can most definently relate to this. My dad was that way, and I totally know how it feels. *hugs* It almost makes you mad, doesn't it? Makes you feel insignificant, like you're just there to take up space to them. It hurts. This is definently in the running. Thanks for the write and good luck!!
~Juju -
My goodness, this is such a sad, sad poem.
I never had a fifth grade graduation, but I did have a seventh grade graduation! I cried so hard that day, gosh I cry easily. The song Butterfly Kisses alone, when I really listen to it, makes me cry. And this poem certainly made my eyes water.
It's so nice to hear of forgiveness, it takes great character to be able to forgive like that. This was an all-around touching, and heartbreaking, poem. It's bittersweet. Beautiful.
You are such a genuine soul, it's a wonderful thing.
Take care!
Christine
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wow. this is pretty powerful, and yea, it's gotta b painful. im glad u've been able to forgiv her, and others in ur life that hav hurt u. its a hard lesson but once u've learned it it gets easier i guess...i like the way u added lyrics (wow, surprised eh ?
), never heard that song...but i think ive heard of it...it's so sad, and really fits the theme.
it's sad, cause i guess i enjoy readin painful poems, but i think this is one of ur better ones...^^
*rereads* aww poor u. lol, i just put ur pics in a box...lol, i can just picture this happening...
mushy -
AAwww... Don'e worry, I'm sure she didn't mean to miss it.... I like what you wrote about, and your feelings, and the poem itself...
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wow, that's a really good poem....i like how you don't comform to what most think poems have to be: rhyming. nice way to break the mold....
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Thank you, Amanda, for your wonderful comment on my poem. My father didn't attend anything of mine either because my parents were divorced when I was 4 so he hasn't had a big part in my life. Thanks again for your comment. I really appreciate it
--Tim -
OMG. This made my eyes well up with tears. Mostly because my Mother did similar things. She missed my Kindergaten graduation and my fifth grade graduation, every talent show I was ever in, when I completed D.A.R.E, Every play, the one thing she saw was my eigth grade graduation... and when that happened I nearly fainted from shock. Now I can only hope she appears for my High School graduation.
I cannot explain to you how much this poem means to me. It is so close to the feelings in my heart, it's unreal. And the Butterfly Kisses, was a nice touch, because... well let's just say my father never attended any of those things either, but only because he was just never around, you know? And the rest of that song's lyrics remind me of all the times we couldn't share together.
This is certainly an amazing poem. I loved the experience of reading it. Good luck in the contest, I do believe this one's yours.
amanda -
An excellent heartfelt poem! Recently I read that the parent of the opposite sex as ours has the most effect on us growing up and even into our future adulthood. Wow! I know how close I am to my son now and how he so much loves it when both of his parents are available for him and come to things like school functions that are so important to him. Great job on this one.
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Oh wow, I never heard about this, babe. *sighs and hugs you tight* Man that must have been the pits.. I know it's over with, but my heart still aches for you. Yes, you did a fabulous job with the story form, it came out right. I just wish this wouldn't have happened.. But, the good news, you forgave her. Very like you, I'm just glad it worked out. This was beautiful in a sad way, great job, Tim.
*God Bless*
Sarah -
Aww its cute.. And I love that song. Wonderful poem
love and hugs
In christ,
Mary -
Wonderful
Great poem... keep up ur wonderful talent..... -
Aww thats terrible that she missed your fifth grade graduation Tim ! you must have been so upset. if i was there when you were in fifth grade i would give you a hug!*crys* but anyway it was really good and i liked it.
God Bless,
Kara
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