A Childish Mistake

Sitting here thinking.

Wondering if life is worth while.

Wondering if living a life alone is really living at all.

Uncertainty clouds my mind as all the memories of him rush through my thoughts.

It's so unfair.

One mistake and I'm doomed to an eternity of emptiness and loneliness.

I guess it's the price you pay for childish actions made without thinking.

My friends say i shouldn't let go without a fight and that you can't lose something you've always had.

Well i remember another phrase...

If you love him let him go..
If he he comes back...it's meant to be.

All i know is you can't lose something you never had.

I never had his heart so i can't fight for it or hold on to it.

My decision has planned my future.

Now...

All i can do is stand by and watch someone else marry my love.

I'll be the friend at the wedding hearing the vows that were supposed to be said to me.

I'll be the friend watching the house while they go on they're honeymoon.

I'll be the friend watching the children that were supposed to be mine.

I'll be the friend who will forever be alone and who will always regret the day she made a childish mistake.