Abandonment

How come you left me all alone momma
I cried out your name
wishing that u could feel my pain
but yet,
I think you did

When he touched me like he did
felt me like he did
caressed me like he did
all I could think about was my little corner

In my little corner I was all alone
constantly watching
waiting
hoping
praying
that i would find happiness

But over the years
I had plenty of time to
wait
hope and
pray

I watched as he beat you
I waited for you to come to your senses
I  hoped that you would realize
what was going on
I prayed that a joyous day was coming

The joyous day would be when you would leave that crazy man
He was a bad
bad
man

He didn't understand
the meaning of good touch bad touch

But yet i took the molesting
while you took the beating
I guess you assumed it was a fair trade
but it wasn't at all
well at least not to me

You didn't feel him like I did
you weren't touched like I was touched
you weren't neglected like I was neglected
But yet your attitude reflected
that you accepted
the abuse that we were both receiving

I'm sorry momma
I had to get out
I had to move on

My corner wasn't working anymore

Sorry I /abandoned/ you.