Thoughts From A Frustrated Heart
Just sitting here thinking
Bout where we went wrong
thats the only motivation I need
to write this song
Sitting on my bed
Listenin to Usher
Thinking bout how much
of the same pain we suffer
I thought you were the one
With whom I could share my life
Start off as friends
And eventually make you my wife
But somewhere along the line
There were problems in paradise
And lately you haven't just blown me off once
But twice
Its got me feeling
like you wish we never happened
And I feel like every time I fall down
you're somewhere watching laughing and clapping
Got me thinking
like you just dont care
Bout all those times I held you close
And ran my fingers
through your long blonde hair
All those times when I kissed your lips
Put my hands on your hips
And pulled you a little closer
I know I didnt exactly
Prove my love for you every day
Or say the things I said
in just the right way
But I dont deserve
for this pain to stay
Clouding up in my mind
And falling on me like rain
Following me around where ever I go
It just keeps raining
As my heart turns cold
I know I shouldnt have
These feelins anymore
And that I should jus drop them
And leave them at the door
But the thing is
I just cant shake them
God put them here
Cause I sure as hell couldnt make them
I remember the first time I saw you
you were sweating Blake
And I just couldnt wait
Till I found out you two fell apart
Cause I knew when I saw you
you had a place in my heart
I didnt have a clue
How serious we would get
And I kind of wish
It still hadnt happened yet
Cause it feels like it put an end
Between me and one of my closest friends
I dunno whats got you acting this way
All I know
Is its time to make this pain go away
And let me let go
So I can go my own way
Find a new path
Down roads I aint walked before
And find someone whos got the cure
for someone whos in love
And has a broken heart
And can lure me into making
A brand new start
Build a new life
And start all over
With a brand new girl
And a brand new shoulder
to cry on
Cause obviously you dont care
At least that how it feels
When you're there
Help me out here
Cause I just cant see
Is this the way FRIENDS
are supposed to be
I dont know but this really aint cool
The way you walk around
Taking me for a fool
I would have given you
Anything that I ever had
Cause thats just how it is
I want you so bad
It seems every little thing I did
Just held you back
But now that im out of the picture
you shouldnt have all that
Drama all the time
I hope you do well
And you get along just fine
I hope you find someone else
Thatll treat you just like a 10
Cause thats what you are
What you will be
And what you were back then
Back when we were each each others
When we'd hold each other so tight
Cause we wanted no other
Things have changed for you
And I cant say that Im glad
Cause I cant shake these feelings
And theyre drivin me mad
you wanted your space
And I respected that
Cause you put me under the impression
That you wanted me back
But now it feels
Like im just a mistake that you made
Cause every time I look at you
All I see
Is how fast your memories fade
All I can think
Is what the fuck do I still want you for
Cause obviously you dont want me anymore
It might not have been true love on your part
But it was on mine
I loved you from the start
And ill love you for the rest of time
you might not want me anymore
And you might want us to just go our separate ways
But for all the memories you still have
But you want to erase
Do what you've got to do
And drop the whole case
But Im gonna keep them
And pray they dont fade
Cause theyll keep me somewhat happy
for the rest of my days
you taught me how to do things
I never did before
you showed me how to love
And showed me so much more
And you gave me your strength
When I was falling apart at the core
Whatever the future holds for us
Please remember this
you'll always be loved
And you'll always be missed
Andrew
13-18June2004
Author notes
well there was a girl named whitney.... we were 2getha a couple years back and needless 2 say we aint no more.... she has been tha inspiration 4 many of my poems.... Till I Collapse was one of tha ones where she pissed me off greatly.... n spite of tha ways she did me i still love her and i dont think that ill ever b completely over her....
best wishes 2 her
Written June 18th, 2004
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I really like this - reminds me of a rap - such punchy rhyme. Well done and good luck
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yep we've all been in this situation before and nothing helps but time and keeping busy. some people never leave our hearts.
you wish her well though...that's what i like. nicely done
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well written...thought provoking...
I'm sorry you're hurting over a lost love. I don't know anything about the circumstances of your relationship with Whitney nor do I know why ya'll broke up. I can however empathize with what you are going through. You see...I thought back in August 1980 I married my soulmate, my prince...well 8 years later we were separated. Our son was only 7. He's 24 now. My exhusband chose to flee the state to avoid paying child support. Well..he's managed to avoid paying child support, but I feel a little bit sorry for him now because he missed seeing a great kid grow up to become a teacher. He's going to miss seeing him marry in December because my son has told me he does NOT want his dad on the guest list. Thank God for our church family...they've been a godsend to Bill and me. Geez..this is turning into a bio of my life's story....I really just wanted to let you know that someone out there empathizes with what you're going through. I've been there...time does heal all wounds.
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time will fix this
A phenomal example of unrequited love everyone can relate to -
amazing
Yeah, I can all to knowingly agree with you there. It happens both ways, and either way it goes, it doesn't matter how much time you sit there and wonder if the pain will ever leave. The more you sit there and think about it, the better (or worse) it can get. It all just depends on the day. I hope you find peace soon.
Great work, here! -
that was written a long time ago......ive done been over her....... i just been going through sort of a dry spell the last few months so i decided to put that up..... i just realized that it was lonely and needed some comments so i promoted it.....
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This is so sweet and full of true raw emotions. I loved it. You'll get over Whitney as soon as you fall in love with someone else with the same intensity...and you will. You will never forget your first true love, but, in time, you will remember her with a smile and not tears.
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A lot of pain and emotion
expressed here. You really
poured your heart out.
Great job on this.
Thank you for sharing.
Jeannie D
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marvellous
Dear most of time in love we dont get the same amount of love we pay.But you must know its not sale and purchase.Loving someone is important and being loved is secondary.And i must add God has made human beings to love.Love each sight you come across.I admit forgetting someone you loved is a tough task.But the shoulder of memory is too weak to rest upon.Anyways a nice poem with a heavy emotional content and super sonic flow.I never felt it was getting long before i read it whole in a scene.Just lovin it -
crystaldust 15-03-06 21:16
Now, I can't read your poem because the background is too noisy and busy, so can you do something about that? The other thing is that we don't use mobile phone spelling with its mix of numbers and words. So it would help if you would just write in ordinary American English. It's easier and tidier to read. Okay?
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