Darkness

Lying in bed I look up to the sky
Sheer blackness sprinkled with stars.
I sit up and lean against the frame.
Why does night time seem so lonely?
My roommate is long asleep enjoying the dream world.
I lie awake full of thoughts and doubts.
I look out and see the lights
Lights from the city and sky
I watch cars drive down all the distant roads
Where are they going so late at night?
I look down into the parking lot.
His car isn't there but mine stands alone.
My car stands alone just as my heart does.
Where can he be so late at night?
I wonder if he is with someone else.
Maybe, he is lying dead in road somewhere.
I try to take my mind off of him.
I look back out into the sky.
Tonight there is no moon.
I miss the blue shadows cast down from it.
The glow that is gives inspires me.
I look out to the trees which stand tall.
They look as if they are a barrier
keeping us from being pulled in by the city lights.
Trying to make us leap for the stars.
Making us take a leap of faith.
Faith.
Where has our faith gone?
It seems as dark as the sky.
What would it take to reach the sky?
To leap and land among the stars?
The silence is so present at night.
The silence that is overwhelmingly loud.
I take once last look into the darkness.
With a sigh, I lay back down,
Pull up a black comforter and drift away
thinking and doubting.