Shattered Trust
You quickly walked towards the waiting car
The suitcase swinging heavy in your hand
You said the coming trip would take you far
I reached and stroked my golden wedding band.
You slid inside the car and shut the door
I leaned in through the window for a kiss.
You said you'd call that night, if not before.
That evening my world turned to an abyss.
The lies and cheating ripped apart my life
Till what was left? An aching, empty shell.
I'd married you, I'd tried to be your wife
But then you made my life a living hell.
Deserted with no money, all alone
You left me and destroyed my fragile trust.
Abandoned in a country not my own
My self esteem well-trodden in the dust.
You dumped me, yet you loved me (so I thought)
It's something that I live with, day to day.
A lesson, harshly learnt and cruelly taught.
And now my lack of trust makes others pay.
They pay the price for all the pain you gave
The price of tender love now turned to dust.
The hurt and the deceptions I forgave
But now I need to learn again to trust.
Please help me ...
Someone, love me ...
Help me trust.
© Master Domtos rose
Author notes
Love/hate
Abuse comes in many forms - not just physical. This is my story.
My husband was a confidence trickster in a big way. He was a serial cheat, having multiple online affairs. He emptied both of my private banking accounts, trying to blame it on other people. He pretended to be suffering from cancer and confined to a wheelchair. In the end, after less than a year of marriage, he walked out, leaving me with no home of my own, no job to earn money to feed myself or the pets, no phone, no car and no way to get back to my parents (I am Australian and was living in England at the time). Since coming home, I have learnt that he miraculously recovered from the cancer and is no longer in the wheelchair - moreover, he is hooked up with a cerebral palsy sufferer, who has no way of combatting his confidence tricks.
Written March 12th, 2006
A contest entry
- vows,marriage,divorce,seperated..till death did you part..pw,s ok.. by Honeydew.
450 points, ended March 9, 2008, 22 entries
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wow
so sorry this happened to you...a great write filled with emotion and feelings of such betrayal, and anger,and a note to all.. that there are evil people out there...you were a victom...he will have to answer to the man above...it will be hard to trust again ..yet in time you will!!! thank you for sharing your write and true experience with us allpoetry readers...and thank you for entering my contest. -
It's a sad story....
OMG
I think I saw a movie once...it happens on regular base people are doing all the things you described...
I do hope your life is much better now and that you didn't lose all your trust in people...
Take care in all you do
Good luck in my contest...
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I'm sorry but I don't see your name
One of the rules...please follow them
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Once trust has been broken, it takes a lot morwe then a simple sorry to fix that wound. You can't expect to trust them right away or for that matter in some cases ever. time normally though heals wounds.
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wow! intense! very strong write.
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Wow.. this man don't sound so nice... but they're not all like that... and you should be happy to be free.
Great poem.
'Deserted with no money, all alone
You left me and destroyed my fragile trust.
Abandoned in a country not my own
My self esteem well-trodden in the dust.'
You have an amazing way of writing exactly what you feel... and it helps others to understand.. when reading your poetry.
Thanks again for entering.
skitza
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This si amazing and I hate him! He is such a pig! Hooking up with a person who can't defend themselves! Oh that is sick! I'm so sorry he hurt you the way he did, that is terrible! It's so hard to trust people, and even harder when they hurt you! I hope that one day you find some one who help you mend your wounds!
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this is a very well written peice, the content is exteemely clearly presented and well explained. this must have been an awful time in your life, unfortuantly the world has many of these career liers within it but I have never heard of anyone going to such extents as what you have described here.
the poem is well constructed and demonstrates the effect that this person has had on your life very clearly.
very well written peice.
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This is really such a hearfelt piece! i lvoe the rhymes and how well it flows, thank you for entering my contest and good luck!
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wow beautiful and flowy *speechless*
good luck
ellie -
heartwrenching. i see my parents in you, oddly enough. but i guess fate works in mysterious ways. although i've never been married ( actually, im not even the legal age to be married yet), i have some experience in this kind of situation. fantastic job, i hope this guy rots in hell for what he's done to you. good luck in the contest!
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wow. you must be heartbroken. this is a great piece of work with such a great story of a terrible man. i feel truly sorry for you, but with it you wrote some amazing poetry. you have a great talent and a wonderful sense for both rythm and ryhme. you have descriptions to envy and a message no one can look away from. you have a wonderful piece of work on your hands. great job
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Outstanding Writings
Dear God. This is a perfect poem, a tremendous poem, describing what is the worst of imperfections. You certainly did do a great job on the poem. I hope the plea at the end comes to fruition. --Ellis -
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Gorgeous. What a beautifully written choice of words and placement. I am really impressed with your writing and am making you one of my favorites. Thank you so much for sharing this with me. -
This was very sad, but very well written. I can't imagine how afraid you must've been. I know I would be afraid in a place I didn't know well. A very terrible experience indeed, but hopefully, it has and will make you stronger in the end.
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Whoa, this is so horrible that it happened to you. Certainly traumatic. This is such a beautifull written poem and I wish I could empathise with you. Beautiful work and good luck
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thank you jinkx
each day brings me a little closer to being whole again ... and friends like you and the love of Master James are helping that process. Thank you to all of you who have commented so wonderfully on this piece ... thank you for understanding how hard it was to go back and rip my guts out all over again ... thank you for your support and caring, all of you.
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WOW Master Domtos rose, this is awsome, it is sad how much we have to endure in order to find ourselves though. we are truly privileged that you have let us into such a personal and traumatic part of your life.
~hugs~
jinkx -
You said in your comment on my poem that you were feeling self pity, well everyone has those moments, and not to encourage any of those feelings, but since this happened to you, I would say you have the right more than others (I hope that came out right). I read your authors page too, and from that it seems as if you have moved on from what this guy did to you, and I'm happy for you. Be wary, but don't let this keep you from finding happiness. Everyone gets what's due to them. The poem itself was very well written, with good rhyme and all, something I would imagine to be difficult when trying to tell such a personal story so right. Great write.
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two kangaroos to him
after reading your comments i have the utmost respect for you and am proud of the strength of your character coming through and that is something no person can take from you. hard as it is you will survive and move on and be a much better person than he can ever be so walk tall and try not to waste energy on a body that is not worthy of you. this poem shows expression and emotions full of love and yeah trust is something that you earn and i hope you give again - in time. this poem flowed nicely and it is one damed fine piece of writing. then again you are an aussie too. always in peace & harmony ja. -
You have poured out your heart here and all the pain you went through was palpable in every line.But have faith,time is a great healer.A good poem.
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nice write up..
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A very well written poem portraying how easily he left your love and showed the essence of his self by not being able to to be honest with you.I believe in karma.He will find himself in the same situation that he left you in one day.Will he be as strong as you and cope and make a new life?Will he find a creative outlet for his pain?Or will he turn to alcohol?The main thing is you haven`t wasted anymore of your life,love and affection on someone who wasn`t worthy of it.You have been set free to heal and to give and recieve love again.Without relating my own angst to you I can say I have been to hell and back through relationships.I am stronger now.I am wary,just like you,but,if we stop ourselves from giving love again we also stop ourselves from recieving it.Your story of being dumped in England reminded me of when I was at the airport saying goodbye to my guy,we weren`t going to see each other for months and every minute was precious.An American lady approached me for a light for her cigarette,she opened up to me and told me of her heartbreak at the guy who had dumped her after she had given her job and home up in the states and she had scrapped enough fare together to go home.We ended up hugging and she cried on my shoulder,I told her that she would fly on the plane and continue flying when she landed,when we are faced with a situation that nearly destroys us we can let it destroy us or soar above and rise like the phoenix from the devastation.I made a new friend that day and she made a new start in her life`s journey.I wish you health,happines,healing and love,Yvette
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very sad. you penned a great poem though. you sound like a strong lady.
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Yes life is cruel lover sometimes. I am glad you are loking to trust. It is a good sign and thank you for sharing this sad experience. Its good to get it out, not ket it fester inside, we so rise tho and love again. Most importantly we musy fall in love with ourselves. Good luck Master x
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So many of us share you pain...just embrace it- use our dispondency to continue to write so beautifully
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you've written of this tragedy very well...even ending it with hope. i do not understand how one human could treat another this way
very nicely done
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Thank you ... it was very hard to write about this and I am still pretty upset by the feelings it brought back. However, I felt today was the right day to write it as I really felt miserable and on the verge of tears for most of the day. I'm glad that some of what I was and am feeling came through in my writing.
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a sad experience, that i am sure many have. love holds no prisoners, she just tramples those she sees fit into the ground until they just cannot breathe anymore. the heart is resilient though, it fights with every beat. a good poem. good luck to you too.
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