I was lost in my own little world,
Causing my own self-destruction,
My soul had been crushed,
My heart had been torn,
Just in general my emotions were completely worn.
My face was constantly wet,
As I sat and wallowed in my own tears,
Letting my fears get the best of me,
Letting him control my life and who I was,
I put up with you for so long,
Always thinking that I have done something wrong.
All your lies constantly played like a movie in my head,
When did he ever tell me the truth?
Did he ever truly care?
My whole life was wasted with him,
Always dragging me down.
I was lost in a world of self-destruction,
My emotions had got the best of me,
Making me blind to see what he had done,
Changing who I was,
Making me not trust anyone anymore,
Turning my world upside down.
No matter what I did it was never good enough for him,
He always wanted perfection,
Everything had to be done perfectly or not at all,
Even when I fell,
I had to fall right or else he'd get angry.
Those emotions controlled my life like a puppet master and I the puppet,
The strings were all the lies you told me that at first I thought were true,
I was a puppet in my own show,
When one day I found out all the lies and broke free,
Cutting the strings and becoming my own person again,
No longer controlled by so many stupid lies but finally free to do as I want.
Author notes
Written March 8th, 2006
A contest entry
- Contest for all writers by Blondie 1.
300 points, ended June 15, 2006, 26 entries
Gold trophy winner
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Wow...
Normally it's hard for my to find myself in another author's work, but you have done that for me. I love this feeling, because it makes me realize I wasn't the only one to experience someone who was wrongful to me, and I'm sorry we both experienced it. But, that which does not kill us makes us stronger. I enjoyed this piece very much, because I could relate to it.
"No matter what I did it was never good enough for him,
He always wanted perfection,
Everything had to be done perfectly or not at all,
Even when I fell,
I had to fall right or else he'd get angry."
This part struck a chord with me really hard, because, it reminds me of a certain time that I went through with my ex, and it did not end well. I hope that if this is a true story, that it is no longer true, because nobody deserves to be treated this way.
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Wow aweomse job. i feel like i am going to cry. Keep up the awesome job. And thanks for entering.
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Well written Lexi
The lines are powerful as well as the images projected. I'd also like to say nice background 
I liked how you used the analogy of the puppet and the puppeteer. Cutting away from the strings that control you and gaining freedom of self conscious mind again Keep on writing Lexi ^-^
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Thanx a lot lol and btw love your name heh alexis tis my name as well.
<333Alexis A.k.a. Lexi<333 -
love it alot!
wow this is great... Good luck!
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I love the line "Even when I fell I had to fall right"
Thanks for the read
-brit
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