Why??

~Why do I let people get close to me,
Just to push them away,
Or to have them push me away?~
~Why do people play interested,
When they really aren't?~
~Why do I believe all this bullbunny
That they say to me?~
~Why do people believe that
I am so vulnerable to them.~

~How do I change my habits,
Of pushing those I care for away?~
~How do I know who is truly interested?~
~How do I sort through all the things said,
To know what's real and what's fake?~
~How do I show I am not the one,
Who gives in to whoever whenever?~