Lying in a pool of my own self provoked depression;
Wishing that I didn't have this unusual obsession.
Constantly thinking of death and everything i fear;
A haunting presence fills the room, looming very near.
Everything that could go wrong is running through my mind.
Everything that would go wrong could happen any time.
Feeling very short of breath as the walls close in around me.
My heart is pounding through my chest, violently resounding.
A chill runs up and down my spine, affecting every nerve.
resenting all the misery I undoubtedly deserve.
Disturbing thoughts race through my mind as I sit here on the floor.
I don't know what the hell to do, I can't take it anymore.
Anxiety has the best of me, I'm held fast in its grip.
fearing an internal explosion as my heart begins to rip.
I climb into the bed and scream as i slowly start to rock
back and fourth i beg and plead for god to make it stop
"I can't let this get to me" I say in desperation
hoping that a calming word will cease this deep vexation.
As time wears on I lose the will to sit and rock and weep.
After all my energy's spent, I slowly drift to sleep.
Author notes
written in collaboration with VampiresLuv4Ever.
Written March 5th, 2006
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well said. good wording. i like it!
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Awsome poem I loved how you brought out worst of Anxiety. Thats exactly what it feels like. I especially like the end! It's true you stay awake untill u get so exhousted you just fall asleep. One thing I do hate and this has nothing to do with the poem. Is people who fake things like anxiety and make it harder for people with it to get medical! Oh well...We write great poetry together and we need to keep it up..hehe.. I'll see you soon okay and have fun with those pictures or whatever Betty is sending you.
-Angie
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this is awesome.
not many people can grip the true emotions of the sickness of depression, but you eclipsed it perfectly. the flow and the rhyme you contain is great, doesnt seemed forced at all.
great write.
with love and respect,
xxsara.
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wow. thats really good i luv the words you used also
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damn....this is really excellent. i love the flow and rhyme scheme you used here. none of this seemed force. depression can have it's best on the person it has possessed....you never know what depression can do to one's life and all that's around. a lot of people just deal with it by cutting or by rocking back and forth as if they are insane. i loved how you wrote this and collaborated with VampiresLuv4Ever. perhaps you guys should do more together. it's awesome.
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