I found it ironic
that the only person who "loved" me
would be the only person to cause this
but how could you not see?
At one point in time
you were my reason for putting the pain to the side
for telling myself "NO...
He would care if you died."
But as time rolled on
I found it harder to convince
to put down the knife
and have kept picking it up since
Suicide seems inevitable
And even now the thought sends chills
although, I suppose it's too late
the pain that kills
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Where did it all go wrong?
For the first time I had a family and..!
I had a life! I had emotion!
Me sitting here is nothing as I planned!
NO! this is all wrong!
I take it back! There is so much more to live for!
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Like what? An empty mind?
A heart that you had torn?
No one loves people like us!
Accept it, it's your fate!
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But it cant be, I wont believe you!
There is not that much hate...
I know some one, he'll save me
he wont let me die!
********
Well, where is your hero?
Is he being shy?
Half way over now
I hope you told him good-bye...
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NO! NO I did not!
But why?
I've been so dumb...
I've wasted so much!
********
Time is almost gone
no reason to clutch
He's not coming
give up hope!
********
Never...would he really leave me here
all alone, by myself to cope?
But...you are right...he is not here
I feel cold, and weak. I'm so afraid...
********
What did you expect?
You've been betrayed.
It's over now...
with your last words, what will you say?
********
Even though you left me
all alone to decay
I still want you to know...
I love you anyway.
Author notes
I chose number 2. I wrote it from the 2 point of views that some one has once they've already cut. I think there is nothing as scary or dark as realizing you are going to die by yourself.
Written March 5th, 2006
A contest entry
- I want DARK!!!! by blood stained lips.
300 points, ended March 8, 2006, 7 entries
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Well done thank you for your entry.
Lauren -
*GASP* AMAZING!!!!! I really mean it, this is simply great and I'm sure you know how i relate. It seems we both made the same mistake, living and holding on for one person. Thats no way to live yet here I sit taking every breathe for another. You can't depend on someone else, you need to live for yourself. But isn't that the hardest thing? Going on just because you know you should live? Still thats what you really should do, but who am I to talk? Really, what the fuck do I know? Not much I'll tell you that. I just find it sad sometimes as in sit crying in the shower, razor in hand because Steve had upset me (or not even really done something, maybe just didn't say what i was looking for) and sometimes I think, why am I living this way? From phone call to phone call, this just isn't working. Wow...I never meant to rant but at any rate, I love love love this poem. And I do love you. Peace and love.
mel
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