Alone...

All children born in this world,
are constructed to die
All we ever have is taken from us,
In life or through death
we lose everything in time

So writing this,
the page is stained with liquid pain,
water born from sorrow

I know I cannot spare you this pain
perhaps it is time to move on...
you can't wait, so far away...

As we are destined for pain and fated to die
life becomes intoxicating
I try to open my wings...
for when I die
you, my treasured one,
I shall return for

if only in memory, for I cannot transcend death

Through my doomed frail body,
I cannot reflect myself
I do not deserve you,
you must find another near,
to keep away the loneliness...
                                       but that doesn't stop me caring..

it's just...
I can't move like this
You've trapped me
This rain falls,
eyes blur...
you are all I dream of now
but it is not to be...

but....
who is it to be?
and how long must I wait...
as I am now, only you fill my thoughts...
and have done for so long now...
a forsaken doomed love...never to fly

I just wish...there was someone
who might be interested...
not a possibility
simply proof I am not repulsive...
that I can be loved...
that someone I can see would want me...

maybe it's selfish,
but I feel isolated
I know I deserve less...
but I can't help being lonely...

but I cannot see when I would ever be able to find anyone
I can see, touch, in reality
near me...

I'm lonely..........*holds teddybear close*