1.
I learned at an early age not to bother her
when there was tears in her swollen eyes
or when my father shoved her across the room.
2.
That was the year my brothers turned six
and became too old to give a damn about
their embarrassing little sister.
3.
I was four years old with no sense to keep my mouth shut
and already I had a lip swollen like my mother's.
I never cried afterwards though.
At least give me that recognition.
4.
A year earlier my mother gave me a special
Birthday present-
She took me to the beach and left me.
I never do remember how i got home.
I just remember she never said why
she tried to abandon me.
5.
When father started working again
he left us and took his leather suitcase.
Never bothered to tell my mother goodbye.
6.
She remarried that spring to a recovering
meth addict and alcoholic.
Two addictions I'd pick up in my teen years.
7.
I was in school now and I found out
just how important reading is.
Hiding behind my bedroom door
with an encyclopedia over my head
waiting for him to creep in my room
and read me his special bedtime stories.
8.
I miss my oldest brother.
He killed himself when he was fourteen.
I brought him flowers and stole
his hand me down dreams.
9.
Addiction runs in my family.
The addiction of abusing your love ones.
Of drinking until you pass out and cant see.
The addiction of methaphetamines.
Of suicidal attempts.
Of never saying sorry.
10.
It's over now.
the beatings-
the suicidal impulses.
The rape-
the starvation.
Lets lie and say so are the drugs.
your baby girl is now grown.
Still waiting for her father to come home.
Terrified that her stepfather
will get out of prison soon.
Missing her brothers-
one dead.
one dead inside.
Still wishing for that lava lamp
you broke against my head the Christmas I was eight.
Hoping to beat these demons
and your handed down addictions.
Still waiting to hear three important words.
But I'd settle for sorry.
Author notes
it's over now.
[option3]
Written February 27th, 2006
A contest entry
- This Is The Story Of A Girl by mnc.
500 points, ended July 15, 2006, 21 entries
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest - Abused??? Let it known! Scream it out, tell the world about it. by starving-to-survive.
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Oh my god... This poem touched something within me. I almost cried reading it. It is a shame anyone has to go through such terrible things. I wish I could take the pain away, hun. Meth is a nasty drug no one should be faced with. I've been there before. I've never done the drug personally, but I've had family members...
This was the most powerful poem I've read on all poetry since I've been here hands down. If you ever need someone to confide in, don't be a stranger. I'm willing ti help the best I can. And for this poem you deserve a gold. Good luck in the judging.
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I cant stop crying. This poem is absolutly incredible. I love it. I am so so sorry you have been through so much pain. I can really relate to your words. This write is just amazing i dont even know what to say other than WOW!!! Please message me so i know who you are i would love to talk to you. I think we have a lot in common. I wish i could take your pain away.
I was in school now and I found out
just how important reading is.
Hiding behind my bedroom door
with an encyclopedia over my head
waiting for him to creep in my room
and read me his special bedtime stories.
I think if i had to pick a stanza that would be my favourite. I can picture a small, frail scared little girl hiding behind the door, just as i used to. Thank you for entering my contest i am truly honoured. and i am always here to talk
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Thankyou for the comment. I am glad you enjoyed my poem. My name is Trish if you ever want to talk, I come on here atleast once a day and I am always looking for new friends. Hope to hear from you soon.
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Wow! I don't know what to say!
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wow, this was a great write. i loved every line of it. it was well written and flowed nicely. i am sorry you had to go through all this, and i truely hope that you find peace in your life. it seems you have an amazing talent, do not let that go to waste. take care and i wish you the best of luck in the contest, and in life.
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Wow, This is excactly what I was asking for, thanks for the entry!
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Wow, so good thing im crying now. That was flippin amazing. I'm incredibly sorry any of this has had to happen to you. I mean, I've had one little horrible thing happen to me and I know how hard it is...You are an unbelievably amazing author and I love your work. I've read just about all the poems you've written after this one and I am like in love. Anyway, I just wanted you to know that your work touches me...You're amazing!
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This is incredible. The pictures you brought to mind, the words you used, the subject matter...wow. I'm sorry that all this happened to you, but this is a fab work of art. Keep writing.
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This is a very good and very saddening piece of art you've got here. It's kind of reminds me of a Credo a friend of mine wrote.
Thanks for entering,
Melissa
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