Not

This wasn't supposed to happen,
She wasn't supposed to know,
It wasn't supposed to be this way,
But it happened all over again.

This night was supposed to be magic,
Unforgettable, a one-of-a kind,
Special, and all about me,
But they ruined it once again.

Seeing him again,
Was gonna make it all better.
He was gonna make everything go away,
Wrap his arms around me, and whisper in my ear.

Instead this is what happened,
A night destroyed and chopped to pieces,
By who? My family, of course.
My sister, my mother, my absent father.

"Ever hate life?" I ask her again,
"Sometimes," she replies. "But forgive and forget."
I have spent my entire life trying to do just that,
But instead I get knocked back down.

Despite what you may think,
I'm not a lesbian, and I'm not pregnant.
Just because you hate yourself,
Don't bring me down too.

I'm not a bitch, I'm not a slut,
I'm not a hoe, I'm not a skank.
All my "old friends" don't hate me,
And I'm not like my freakin sister.

So stop saying I am!
Stop judging me!
Just accept me for who I am,
I am me, and you gotta deal.

So leave me the hell alone.
If I want to cut, that's my issue.
It's none of your freakin business.
So stay out of my life!!!!