High Society (let us see through the eyes of another)

I still think its wrong that you left us.I still think its wrong that you never came back never even bother to send so much as a message in a bottle our way.I still belive that you did care. I always knew you cared and that you would come back.I remember you said "Chasey I love you" and you started to sing Wild Horses by the stones and just melted any fear I had of never seeing you again away.I knew it was still summer and I could still see you all the time...but I didnt...you left us you just left us for your high society world of flawless people classy parties and other things the swanky upper class...plastic..people do. For a long time I was the one thing you never wanted me to be...I was bitter...but soon enough I set my sights on something or...someone else...Zach was starting to wear himself down...I dont know what happened exactly but..he wouldnt fight anymore he'd just fall.Seemed like he had given up completly on being tough and strong and just broke down...unless...that is someone tried to comfort him or even ask him what was wrong...none of them could see it...but I could the fear and the pain in his eyes was just like a little kid watching a deer get shot and die...horrified and deeply deeply pained.One night I just found him sitting on the steps in front of the school just looking...not at anything that I could find just looking and thinking...
"okay zach what the fuck is wrong with you youve been like this for months now"
I said I knew it was cold and harsh but it was the only way to get to him at this point
"nothing" his voice was sharp and I could tell he was lying to me again.
"Zach I cant do anything for you if you dont-" that was when he cut me off.
"My dads faggot ass friends decieded if my dad couldnt fucking pay for their shit then they were gunna get their moneys worth anyway! so they stormed into my room and each took their sweet little turns raping me!"
he snapped in my face.
"you wanted to know what was wrong THATS what was wrong are you fuckiong happy now?!?"
And I just sat there...I could not belive what my ears had just heard...
"oh...my...god..." was all I could manage to choke out. Zach was my best friend and it was in that moment that I realized just how mush I care about him.
"Zach I..." I was stuck for words...so I put my arm around him and just sat there...he didnt move...he didnt speak...he just stared...
but he wasnt staring at nothing like before...he was staring at me...but he wasnt staring....it was like he was looking for somthing in my face some emotion that I wasnt letting through...he eventully just...layed his head on my shoulder and fell asleep...I was still in shock...