There it goes, one more time.
Rummaging through the waste to find the blade.
I press, it hurts.
Not as bad as my pain inside.
I bleed, inside and out.
I hate you,
Why make me suffer, why make me cry.
I loved you,
Why hate me too.
I've did it again,
Once again,
Another time,
Another scar.
I searched for you, i cried for you,
Was it all my fault.
The horror of your sadness,
Smeared all over our things.
Ripping me apart, i sob,
It was all my fault.
Now i punish myself,
In the only way i know.
To run,
To rummage,
To cut,
To bleed.
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Written February 8th, 2006
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Painfully Wonderful
This is a very strong and powerful write sweetheart ... I know what your going through for I too have been there ... Cutting takes away from the emotional pain ... it takes it away for just a little bit ... The pain will come back in time, but the scars are there forever ... I really admire your writting ... keep up the good work hun ... and keep on writting!
Smile, It Confuzez People,
<3 Sparkeh -
excellent
i can really relate to this well done -
I am sorry - and this is no reflection on your talent as a writer, but this subject matter turns me off before I begin. It's been said so many times before - the anger, the self inflicted pain etc., You obviously have a passionate soul given that you can harbor so much anger and loathing for (basically) yourself or this other character that has caused your pain, however, I would love to read a poem that spews your anger onto the page in a powerful: "Bite Me" statement, as opposed to a "You hurt me, so I'll hurt me too..." wallowy statement. Please do not take offense as this is not a personal attack by any means, it is just an idea as I can tell that you are talented as a writer and it would be nice to read something a little more out of the box from you...(Feel free to check out my "You hurt me now screw you" poetry on abuse)
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at first i thought this was going to be another cliche cutter poem,ant im not going to lie to you, i feel that it was to an extent. But its almost to the point that all things "pro-cutter" are cliche if only because I see it so much nowdays, so dont take the cliche part to personally. You do have some beautiful imagery, perticullary the part about your blood being smered all over everything. The last stanza did have a primal effect. Almost made it feel like cutting is a part of nature, which I can see to an extent. I remember back when I was still cutting it was like almost part of the day, like going to school, or eating lunch. Except it wasnt scheduled, but it would always come, So yes, i can see it as a primal instinct. great write.
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i have problems with this, you obviously need some help. maybe you should try happy things.. is i ever wanted to kill myself i'll read your poem again.. good write though
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Great work! If you don't mind my asking, what was you're inspiration? Your emotions show through the words, they dont just tell your story.
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i loved it!
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My dear you sound so sad, and you need a big old hug from a friend. so heres one eor you. Ennovy
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Very well done!
(((HUGS)))
So much pain and sadness in your words...I wanted to reach across the screen and embrace you and let you know I care. Amazing how readers get swept up in a Poet's emotions; you've poured them out onto the page. Please. Keep writing--it will save your life, as it has mine.
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Amazing impact you've created here. The last verse was really powerful. Well written poem. Good work.
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Painfull but Great
I always find the words hard to come by with such a painfull tale.
This is really well written. With age comes wisdom and strength and we look back at life and smile for we will grow stronger.
Good Luck
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