Your gone again, what is this now three times?
Its over and over now daddy, when will you just unwind?
I'm tired of feeling like this daddy, so let down.
I'm happy on the outside, silently concealing my frown.
So much is going on right now I need you.
Your missing out on so much, what should I do?
You know I have a problem dad, why would you do this?
You know how I long to feel that red blooded bliss.
How the razor kisses my skin making it all better.
I wouldn't have to daddy if only you could make it better.
I have tried so hard to stop because you have to too,
were alot alike you know?? Unknowing of what to do.
When your upset you calm down with a drink,
when I'm upset I calm down with a bloody brink.
I know how hard it is dad, the urge you get,
for I get it too, you just cant ignore let alone fight it.
I have tried for so long to set away my problem,
because I thought you could be strong for us, for OUR problem.
But I can never forget Dad, how I needed you and you weren't there.
You were NEVER my father, and its not fair.
I cant lie to myself anymore you wont change,
not for you or me. For me you could never arrange.
Arrange a new life, with me involved,
with you there to see me and our problem solved.
You'll never be my dad will you?
Your just an alcoholic,
oh and I forgot there's nothing you can do about it.
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Written February 5th, 2006
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this is such a sad poem and your flow is very well and the emotion is expressed beautifully but it is a very touching poem because i lost my real dad in a drunk driving accident and i now have a alocholic step-father i know it sucks living like that
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great poem
this was really good...usually i just ignore group ims but i was bored and figured i'd check it out...im glad i did. my only suggestion (not about the poem) is that next time you should include the link to the poem so people can get to it easier. the poem was awesome, though. i really liked it...it kind of reminded me of my dad. ive realized recently that a lot of people have problems with their fathers especially, so just remember you're not alone. -
this is so sad and i really feel for you...but you've written about this really well, can't have been easy, and the line 'razor kisses my skin' is amazing, i love it. amazing, touched me...nice one, keep writing
x lucy, p.s stay strong 
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heya, thankyou for the IM, its important for you for other people to read it. itsa very good poem. the emotions are raw and tangible. a very powerful piece, and one that i really relate to. my dad drinks a lot (i dont know whether he is an alcoholic though) he is also very abusive to me.. so i know where you're coming from. my favourite lines are,
You know I have a problem dad, why would you do this?
You know how I long to feel that red blooded bliss.
How the razor kisses my skin making it all better.
I wouldn't have to daddy if only you could make it better.
I have tried so hard to stop because you have to too,
were alot alike you know?? Unknowing of what to do.
i can really relate to that. i hate feeling as pathetic as my dad is. especially when i started drinking to, and now im trying to stop but im getting withdrawal, and im only 14. that just really scares me that im so like someone i hate so much. i love the imagagery of 'razor kisses' making it sound not quite do harsh, but like a good thing. dome kind of comfort in your life. something you dont get from your father.
Its really good fo you to get this out, so keep writing hun, and i will keep writing, and hopefully gettting it out, and having peole (although you dont even know us) know. we're ll here for you. ok, never forget that. and you can IM me anytime you want.
you are a very talented writer, and you can also use your gift to spread awareness about these horrible thjings to other people. its scary how unaware so many people are. they think it doesnt happen anymore, and ceraintly not to anyone they know. but theyre wrong.
Lots of love, and big hugs
Jesse
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Well at the beginning it almost sounds as if you're begging, but I liked how you showed the reaction of his drinking to your cutting. I personally don't like cutting anymore but I liked the way you made it sound. You did a good job on this, good luck in my contest!
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wow that is really wow um... i don't even know the word but it was great i can relate with it some so good job keep writing hope everything gets better!
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