I could die right now
And I wouldn’t care
It might do the world
Some good without me
Where did I go wrong
Why am I feeling like this
Less than an hour ago
Everything was good
My birthday...
In less than six hours
And I could care less
Who cares that I’m 17?
I want to cry
Cry my heart out
Let the tears flow
Until they’ll flow no more
Yet sadly no tears will come
They stay within my eyes
Being sheltered in their home
Like I have been for so many years
I want to scream in pain
Emotional... pain
I want to punch someone
I want to swear and curse
I want to curl up and disappear
Would anyone notice that I’m gone
Head spinning with feelings
Feelings... deep feelings....
Sadly, life must continue to go on... and on... and on...
Author notes
Gotta put on my mask to cover up my pain so I can face the world once more.
Written January 31st, 2006
In a list
What did you think
Comments
1 - 6 of 6
-
i appreciate the comment hun, and i'm no longer depressed. i love ur work & would love to read more soon!
-
aww babe... that is so hard to deal with, I will not have to continue to describe how you feel in my own light, you obviously know it all too well. I don't know what happened with you last night, but I do know you were upset. I do want you to know, even if it doesn't matter, I would care if you were gone. More people then you could probably ever imagine would. And that's offline alone. Look at how many people are trying to support you. I will not applaud this, although it is excellent, for the fear that you'll continue to write more and more like this until it makes me want to drive to where you are and bug you to death with stupid jokes and happy optimism.. and that would get really old really quick. *hugs* I know you'll get through whatever is going on, I have faith in you, other people too, and God will get you through it... as hard as it is, look to Him now, He is one of the only ones that can help, despite how much preaching or talks I want to give, He'll get through to you.
Tim, you mean a lot more to me then you know. And I KNOW I'm not the only one that feels this way.
*God Bless*
Sarah -
aww babe... that is so hard to deal with, I will not have to continue to describe how you feel in my own light, you obviously know it all too well. I don't know what happened with you last night, but I do know you were upset. I do want you to know, even if it doesn't matter, I would care if you were gone. More people then you could probably ever imagine would. And that's offline alone. Look at how many people are trying to support you. I will not applaud this, although it is excellent, for the fear that you'll continue to write more and more like this until it makes me want to drive to where you are and bug you to death with stupid jokes and happy optimism.. and that would get really old really quick. *hugs* I know you'll get through whatever is going on, I have faith in you, other people too, and God will get you through it... as hard as it is, look to Him now, His is one of the only ones that can help, despite how much preaching or talks I want to give, He'll get through to you.
Tim, you mean a lot more to me then you know. And I KNOW I'm not the only one that feels this way.
*God Bless*
Sarah -
F*CKING HELL! DONT U DARE GO AND DIE OR ILL SHOOT U!!
*hmmm wonder how ill manage...*
yet again....i no that too. lets c...i felt that... just over two months ago...before i met up with u again. but u changed that in me. u let God back into my life...and showed me that He's got a plan... and i need to stick around to c that accomplished. what should i say tim?! what do i need to do to show u that im always here. that i care...that i love u byond words, and that i DO care. i care immensly that ur not okay. i care. and God cares above all....depression has stabbed u in the back it seems, and now Satan has control over u...dont let him take complete control... depression is just another way of lettin him in. o dearest, i ...never want u to feel this way... if thers anythign i can do...DONT hesitate to tell me.... *sigh*
mushy -
It is so hard to be a teen ager. To try to walk righteously is
so hard in this day of blatant sin. God loves you, son. We all care about you. You must try to help yourself. You must get help. It isn't a shame. I'm praying for you. The next time, you can help me through one of these rough times. Best wishes and Happy Birthday. Shancy. -
Wow..don't keep your pain locked inside. It will torment you until death. This is sad...why do you feel this way? There must be something troubling you, far more than friendship far more than anything. You can talk to me Tim, if you wish to talk to anyone...I'm here ifyou wish to talk.
Beautiful words, beautiful imagery. Argh..I don't like that you feel this way. *hugs*
Adding your comment:
1 - 6 of 6
1 old applause
