I miss you in the Autumn
when the season's red and gold.
For that is when my father
broke the news that left me cold.
I found it hard to contemplate
life, without you anymore.
Missed coming home from school to you
rushing hungry, through the door.
I took your love for granted.
How selfish I had been.
I put it down to youthfulness,
I was just sixteen.
All throughout your illness
you never said 'you knew'
But I was being over cheerful.
It must have given you a clue.
I tried so hard to hide it.
I was crying so inside.
So sad I wasn't with you
on the very day you died.
Time has dulled the pain
of that memory, life goes by.
But on those Autumn anniversaries
that's when I'm liable to cry.
Until we meet again dear Mum
forgive my youthful ways.
You know I really loved you,
thanks for happy childhood days.
Author notes
Guilt has a habit of never leaving!
Written January 29th, 2006
A contest entry
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Two trophies no less! Another lovely poem, deep sad and thoughtful, a lovely write. I don't think any of us ever really let our mothers know how we feel, but on the other hand I have just sent mine a sonnet!
Thanks for entering remember to get your poems into rounds 9 & 9a (you can have one in each) and get going on the fresh write for round 10,
All the best
Jeff and Sue
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One would have be hard-hearted indeed not to respond to this beautiful and moving poem. Excellent work.
Bill
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Beautifuul and true indeed. Guilt has a way of lingering. This was a very emotion filled and heartfelt write. Through mist clouded eyes I enjoyed very much.
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Beautiful, touching write. I'm sorry you feel guilty about it, but I hope you eventually find peace. Good lucki n the contest.
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good write and good luck in the contest.
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Thanks for reading and commenting.
Ann -
great
Great way to word how you felt about the passing of your loved one, and I know how hard it can be.... And its always good to rememebr them and know that they loved us no matter what and that they would want us to be happy and know we still love them and think of them!! good luck!!
Texas
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Thank you for reading, as I said earlier it was a long time ago but I still feel rotten about being such a horrible teenager and not supporting her as much as I should have. I suppose I was angry that she was dying and going to leave us - there was no counselling in those days. You just had to get on with it.I have since learned that these feelings of anger are quite normal in the bereaved.
Ann -
i'm sorry, i liked this alot good luck
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Hi Ann, very well penned, and highly emotional too. A great write my friend. sj
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Thank you so much for your lovely comments and glad you liked the poem. In a way losing my mother so young has made me a stronger person, as my sister and I had to be there for my father as he found it hard to cope. Unfortunately he died 12 years later from cancer also, although he did marry again and had a few happy years.
Ann -
Thank you so much for your kind words, this happened many years ago (1959) but I was your typical selfish teenager then.
I'm sure she has forgiven me and yes writing it all down helps.
The poem made my sister cry when she read it.
Ann -
Wow, what an amazing write!!!.. Its so sad and I loved the emotions in this poem!!.. It was beautifully written and I loved every word of it!!.. Keep up the amazing work!!!
I hope to read more from you soon!!
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this is a great write but such a sad subject. i wish that i could find the words to tell you how very sorry i am that you are in pain and grief about this. i can't. all i can say is that i have found that writing helps me so very much. i hope and pray that you find the releif that you so desperately need. viyanna r langager
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Thanks for the encouragement!.....Ann
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wow! great write
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