Do you want to do something on Saturday?

I'll never forget that day
the day when I first fell in love with you.
You were exactly what I needed
a dream come true.
Each day I loved you more
though I could not show it
I knew
you would never feel the same.
My friends kept saying,
"Go for it"
"What have you got to lose?"
and
"What if he likes you back?"
but that's just it,
what if...?
What if you liked me back?
What if...?
What if you broke my heart into pieces
threw it to the ground and walked on it?
What if...?
Eventually I could not take it.
I knew if I didn't tell you
someone would
or you would see it on my face.
I planned
and thought
of the best way to express myself
the best way to ask you for the one thing
the one thing that would make me complete.
Nothing seemed right,
I liked you too much to allow it to be casual
"will you go out with me?"
sounds so not me.
"I really like you"
that would make me sound too vulnerable.
"do you want to do something on Saturday?"
Seemed perfect
until that day
that day I asked you.
"Do you want to do something on Saturday?"
You looked at me with pity
PITY!
you looked me in the eyes and said you were sorry
"I hope you understand"
and that hurt worse than anything.
If you would have said just simply "no"
with no feeling
it would have made me feel better.
At least then I could have thought
you were maybe not worth it
I didn't need you,
but I hate that I couldn't have you
and that I was dumb enough to think I could
and dumb enough to go with the
what if...