What do they see
When they look at me?
My blonde hair?
The blue eyes?
Smile on my face...
Six feet tall
A “perfect” Christian
Good student in school
Loving son in a good family
But in reality, who am I?
Do they see...
A fake smile plastered against my face
Lips curling upwards to hide the pain
Teary eyes hiding my true feelings inside
Lies coming from my mouth on how I’m doing
Faking my way through high school on the easy path
My faith hanging by a thread... not strong at all
Fights within my mom going unnoticed by others
You say you know me
But do you really know?
Could you ever understand...
Would I ever let you?
Hidden mysteries deep within my soul...
Author notes
Alright... weird I guess.... Not all true so just don't ask. I got inspired this morning before I took my shower, but just got around to writing it now. I think everyone is like this in a way. There's things that go on that no one knows about... There are things that happen to me that I don't even know about. Some of this is fictional just for the sake of writing a poem, other parts are true or at least partially true. 
Thanks for reading.
Written January 24th, 2006
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great!! great poem...emotional!
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wow this is true, so many people hide a whole lot because they don't want others knowing their pains. I love the liast line, it really makes me think what could I be trying to hide from others, and what others are feeling even if they say their fine.
Love it and you know if you need to talk I'm here!
~*Chelsea*~ -
well...if you do ever need to talk im here.
in any case i know this feeling all too well and being a performer makes me hide my feelings that much better. not that i mind. just know that its better getting everything out of you before you explode and do something you regret later. trust me on that
your work is beautiful as always...keep penning and scrawling poet... -
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Of course it must be hard to be the "perfect" person. I feel for you. You are clever with a pen and a poem. And that's great. Shancy. -
Tim I know exaactly how this is, you say some parts are fictional for the sake of writing a poem but in reality you just showed my life. Due to class expectations, eer exceptations, teacher and school expectations a lot of people don't know me for who i really am, they always see a smile, people need to see that from me, they see a decent well grown woman, in control of everything, when in reality most of the time I am screaming out in pain and cinfusion becasue my life is all over the place, my mom and me had a talk a few days ago, she said, I look like one of the simplist people that oyu couls know, and yet I am one of the most complex, there are sides ot me some people will never see, only when I am hiddenin a dark room alone will they come out, there are sides of me that I try to forget by they will always be a part of me. this is a wonderfully written poem that I think most can relate to. Thank you for writing this, for showing things that people know but then don't...beautiful poem.
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This was great Tim. Beautiful...I know you aren't as perfect as people perceive you to be. I understand a bit with this..because I've been told a million times that my life is too good, it's too grand..I'm too great. I can't complain, I can't feel sadness. I'm too..I guess you could say happy or perfect. Whatever you want. They didn't know that I was yelled at most of my life, that I grew up with anger surrounding me. They just knew..I got whatever I wanted, was spoiled rotten...and had a nice home. They assumed I had nothing wrong with my life, and they used to tell me that soo much..that now all I do is feel guilt if I cry for someone yelling at me, for feeling betrayed by my family, for feeling any form of negativity towards them. Even if they deserve it. I can't tell them anything I feel, because of how my friends told me my life is perfect. I feel guilt...and I feel I'm wrong, even though I'm right. It hurts..that's possibly one of the worst things.
This poem was really beautiful...it wasn't as deep as I thought i twould have been, but it still spoke to me. I hope you get everything you need off your chest.
Your Friend,
Kasey -
Wowow here's a great poem! You really expressed this things instead of me .. But i really think this happens to everyone , we always wear the mask on our face and we always not showing our real feelings to anyone .. i dont know its just opinion only .. anyway very well done Tim!
-papergirl-
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gah... now i feel left out... lol
but ya, i no the feeling...and it happens to all of us at some time or other... sigh. but then if we all new everything that happened to each other wher would the mystery b?! ...okay thats kind of lame... i shant try to find excuse
very well expressed...love the last line
u can tell me anything
mushy
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