Pilgrim of Paradox (for Laura). by Timothy Cameron at All poetry

Searching questions ‘midst prisons (deep) out of time,
Reply do the prisms of simmering lessons divine.
Once foe to this soul, double-minded unrhyme,
Contradict emotions for card decks’ irony sublime.

Standing here in thick stillness, shrouded golden White Pine,
Sometimes my deep shadows, cloak irony’s night climb.
Oh, I studied stricken balance, living twice-once pantomime.
Most times I'm successful, alive & content as f-minor wind chimes.

A yin, a yang, TwoTonesOfOneSoul in peaceable time,
I'm approving day and night like a victimless crime.
Learning, believing and loving real me, the sunlit creeping vine,
Surrendering to my internal fight, flexing prisms of dreamtime…

I’m back in the light.

Author notes

Laura's Poem got me thinking so I did this as a way to honor her pilgramage and partly to fathom what it means. I am not her so I do not pretend to understand her voyage. Rather, I season it, maybe, with a statement of caring through producing this poem.
Written January 22nd, 2006

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Timothy Cameron
March 5, 2006
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It's been a serious challenge to stay alive at times, but it is worth it. I appreciate beauty now more than ever, although lately I have grown a little...intellectual. I hate having a brain sometimes. LOL!
grannyeri
March 5, 2006
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How well you have written this - reading the other comments and hope all is better than it was in January. Thanks for you comments as well.
cherche -d -ame
January 23, 2006
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Oh my friend, I do understand such feelings and I am sorry that you are feeling them now. I do hope that it however is nothing of recent consequence that has brought them about . I do believe that it would not be normal to always feel the gratitude and elation at simply being alive...life after all does have its share of negativity that remains in our hearts , especially if that heart has been hurt. It is the human condition to have resentment and at times even despair when we let ourselves be honest and admit that there are things we wish were different for us . So I do think that you are handling it correctly..you are not pretending to have it all under control , and in many ways that makes you much stronger than the next guy , who on the surface seems to be infallable, as well as too proud to admit that even grown men cry.Your friends are blessed that you share yourself with them , and I am sure they in turn get lifted by you as well. I wish you well, and do remember that I am here also (I love talking<----yacking ) but I am a very good listener as well. Just yesterday I talked on phone to Robin (Lyrical Soul). It was just a chatty conversation, however I know that we would be there for each other were it ever something that we wanted to talk to a friend about, or even cry to each other about
much love,
xoxoxo
reenie <----chirping a song for you
Timothy Cameron
January 22, 2006
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I must admit I am not feeling some of the goodness I would like to feel today. I'm upset, stressed, feel cheated, and more. But that's just life. My life, anyway. I say that objectively. There is a deep lesson in it for me and I will realize it in time...God's time. Until then, all I have to rely on is that Ray of Darkness pulling me toward the beautiful mystery of resolution, faith without logic and trust without reason. It's the only way to go.
At least I have a few people talking to me online right now. I even call someone on the East Coast when I really start to bum out. We've experienced some hardships and we resonate.
Reenie...thanks for sharing your words with me. It does help, you know...
Peace Through Love,
Timothy (sigh...pray for me...LOL!)
Timothy Cameron
January 22, 2006
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Hi Olivia,

No, this is not really about me. It is mostly for Laura, although I can identify with some of it. She wrote a poem very similar in theme and form. I just felt moved to follow its theme accordingly. I felt inspired...words just started coming. I asked her if it was OK and she said yes.
Thanks for reading it. But thanks even more for giving a shit about me. (continued in an email...)
pulsating
January 22, 2006
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if you had the fear that you weren't in the light
chances are you left for a little while
just don't force it, remember you told me that.
I don't want to see a good thing get cocky and slip away...

regards.
Olivia
cherche -d -ame
January 22, 2006
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I have just come from reading Lauras write and commenting with my two cents. This is a wonderful tribute to her and her self-discovery. i love the metaphor of prisms as a prism lets light shine in so many different ways , and I think that is what Laura is doing . At the same time this can apply to so many that are forever journeying past thens and into nows and tomorrows
Great job
xoxo
reenie
Timothy Cameron
January 22, 2006
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You're welcome, darling woman. Don't let anything still your spirit from imparting love. It's what kills poets. As long as we can love, we can live. Like Christ said, it's better to give than to receive...because giving IS receiving (at least for me). Usually, anyway. Sometimes a person needs to receive outright to maintain health. :-)
Laura Lamarca
January 22, 2006
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Consider it seasoned Dear You This is a marvellous write inspired by "Balanced". I must admit, I had a lot of pleasure writing my version, I featured it simply for the smile it brought The thought process behind the write is a valuable one even if it is a little long. The journey of self-discovery is always a very interesting one Thanks for this, your warmth and smiles and also your friendship, it means alot to me. La x