I wish you knew I had a plastic face
I'd melt it so you could see
that I'm completely fake.
dotted lines, written in marker
that I need to retrace
an ugly ugly ugly ugly ugly ugly disgrace.
Leaning over a shiny white bowl,
trying to purify my insides.
I want you to put my good qualities aside.
Sitting in my mary-janes,
on the bottom of the slide.
Drawing pretty pictures on my arms,
with color crayons and blades.
Crying in the corner of the shut down arcade.
Remembering the days of playgrounds,
finger painting, and dolls long braids.
Before there was asthetic beauty.
Before I wanted to be thinner, thinner.
Was there ever a day that I didn't care?
When I didn't want to be swept up in the autumn air?
What was beautiful then doesn't exsist anywhere.
All I have is a f*cked up mirror,
distorted brown eyes, and some
f*cked up tears.
A layer of clothes, a black line around each eye,
a plate of something I just can't eat,
and no real reason to cry.
I'm so tired of asthetic beauty.
Author notes
Written January 21st, 2006
A contest entry
- The premier poet on ap!! by Little Miss Mozart.
300 points, ended November 7, 2006, 23 entries
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Ouch. I just saw a documentary on anorexia and bulimia a few weeks ago. It's wasting breath to just tell people with those eating disorders that it's wrong. One cannot stop all by herself. You can't just go up to one and be like "Hey you eat something". It takes time to recover, and filling a hole that was emptied in that person's soul and you really showed what a person with an eating disorder is thinking all the time. It really sucks. A natural human desire is to want to feel beautiful all the time.
Anyway, I'm rambling a bit.
Great write, and God bless.
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Katey ~
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I really enjoyed this piece. I liked the rhyme, it wasn't forced and that isd something I appreciate. Thank you for your submission.
Arielle giselle -
Wundebar
This is beautiful love. The title just... I don't know... it captures the feeling. Get it? Of course... or perhaps..... >.> <.< Anyway, no matter... this was extremely well written. And you deserve every applaud you get.
Love and Eternal Waffles,
Holly Marie -
wow
a shockingly
amazing write
this rocked
ALTTTT
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i understand totally. i love the poem
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wow. very nice write. i feel exactly the same...
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Wow omfg I can so relate. Amazing write; you capture it so well. Keep up the fantastic work.
~draamqueen469~ -
i get it. that's like putting my feelings into words.
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I'm really glad someone gets it without me having to say it.
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bulimia?
i agree with you.
you just captured how i feel in that.
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