Savor Me

Sensation - poisoning pause
The earthly venom uncoils the constriction
Watching me gag for breath, I am ill
Feeling my right arm quiver, I am dying

Delay - please wait to say goodbye
Thank God I’m not awake to watch you die
She’s coming back; she keeps coming back
It’s always been about me; it’s always been me
Fixation is my disease; my mentality is for you to see

I’ll make up the words in my sleep
To understand the anguish that I keep
World collapsing around me
Silver fumes - my only strange memory

The cerebrum of the leech is throbbing
Peeling bits and pieces of my vitals
To feed its envious heart
And all that you were robbing

Oh how I love waiting for the moment
Dreams of staring past her iris
Breathing the blue wind, “I love you”
I just love denying my void everyday
Miserable, lonely in my unspoken haze

All the people who were supposed to care
Nobody, not anyone, understands one day she’ll be there
The black cavity I hold inside; I pray the reason
She’s everyday to me; my unrequited dream
Until my foundation is final, there’s no true love
Someday it will all seem right
Until then, just savor me