The Black Maize

I walk though the darkness
I can't see my way
the future is clouded
yet i can't look away

i fear for my future
for each step i take
could be the last step i make
i am careful
i am clumsy
bumping here and there
like a blind girl in a maze
that just won't disappear

some of the times I've fallen
leave me with one big bruise
and yet i get up and keep walking on
for what have i left to lose?

once or twice I've bumped the walls
and pain shocked though my face
my mind reaches for despair
that i can't seem to place

there was one part i remember
somewhere in this maze
where there were spikes all over the walls
and deep scars were make
it then i cried out
in fear
in doubt
lost all alone in the night
for they can't understand
haven't been in my skin
or cried themselves to sleep some nights
they can't understand me and my ways
of what is right
of what seems so plain
i am in pain and yet they can't see
they try to understand
but can't truly see me

I've noticed doors that glow with a light
i walk towards them
but they don't feel right
i know they're the way out
and yet i hesitate
and then back away
this blackness if forever
for me its too late

So i must keep going
all alone in the night
i can't help it if my mind fills with spite

i just want to get though
this maze that is my life
and yet i want to stay for the rest of my life
for although there is darkness wherever i turn
there are part where i think i can see
where warm air flows like the sea

i just wish i had a flashlight
so i could know my way
I'm thankful now that others care
an I'm not alone today
when i finally made it out of the maize
and smiled big and proud
then i was brought to up above
where i will be safe and sound