Many moments,
I find myself thinking
of you
overwhelming...
every small detail in your actions i seem to notice...
i wish so much to be yours
but...
i cannot tell...
i am torn beyond belief
do you treasure my existence too?
...a nail driven into my head,
my mind
insecurity wracking every though, feeling
this is me now
I know...
and my path has ended with you
you have said before that you felt affection...
I wonder how close
one can get to another
Am I right for you?
what can I do to be so if not already?
I'm caught in your web
drugged on your soul's scent
and yet bleeding...
love i did not know could bring...
such uncertainty and doubt
to feel your arms around me
lips touching nervously...
to gaze into your eyes
deep pools of wonder
perfect to me...
what lies behind
impossibly alluring
to whisper to you
that I'm yours...only yours
All I want is for you to be happy...
this feeling
tearing through me
so much doubt coupled with love...
more than I ever thought...
Maybe we shall meet in the future...
but I fear what we have now will be lost if that is so...
I no longer know what to do...
All my safety nets cut
mere whisps now...
this phrase
has been overused...it has lost its meaning
but
I would die for you
I promise you so
I could not continue without you now...
you are a core part of my world
these words are simple and cannot represent emotion
so you cannot see the overall picture
painted by these emotions
but these are the colours
their names at least
even if their shade
is blurred from sight
I no longer feel guilt
for loving...
it is me
that is how it is, was and will be
I just wish I lived closer to you...
but perhaps distance is ...
then I cannot lose you
if I never had anything to lose in the first place
My chance to convince you will come...
I wish with all my being not to ruin it...
I find it odd
that all my will to live
hopes
life dreams...
come down to you
one thing on this world...
I never believed I would
be as helpless to someone...
Please be careful...
for the strands in my heart are fragile...
and I know not how much they can take
I know you have done nothing for me to doubt you
but my thoughts
they make me doubt
above all doubt myself
if I could be given as a pet
it would be to you
perhaps then I could stay with you
until my life was stolen from me...
many nights I no longer have an idea
of what to do...
I know I become attached too easily...
I look for someone to hold me...
I am sorry for all my faults...
if hell existed...
this is supposedly a sin...
...sodomy...
but if the universe was made that way...
I choose hell
it would be free
and I cannot lie about you...
Love is the same
whoever you fall for
I long only to be yours for all of time...
it is myself and you I fear
as humanity cannot hold their promises forever...
their feelings are changeable...
but at this moment
you are dearer to me than anything else in existence...
though i do not wish to replace others I treasure also...
Please let this end...this endless cycle of worry...
I shall simply have to wait for each night
hoping it will be a one
involving smiling
but words only show so much...
I have no way of showing you pure emotion...
although different,
you are so similar also
one of the most beautiful creations
to walk this universe
I love you
Author notes
sowwi, this isn't even a poem...but i've liked this person for little while....
i'm confused and twisted inside over it....this was longer than I intended...I'm really sorry everyone if you read this....I'm just so twisted up...I needed to let it out. This was not a planned rant so please just ignore the mistakes, it isnt intended to be good....you can comment with something if you like...I just...uhh... ...there isn't even anything wrong...I see to have made this up and worried over nothing...but I did worry and do worry so I needed to let it out. and the person i wrote this about he done nothin to suggest to me anything bad at all, he has only done nice things....just me being hypesensitive anything little thing people do can send me off on whether they like me and stuff....sorry again...
Written January 11th, 2006
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thankyou
yeah....i think being a pet would be nice...it's kinda safer than others things because they keep you whatever happens
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Oh, my dear friend. If you ever need to talk, I'm here.
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this is ... wow. it is really good, even if you think its just a rant and not a poem, i will diagree because i think its beautiful. wow! this is so long and it did take me a while to read, but i love it and think you have done really well with it. i applaud you *applauds* lol i worry too, you know, and its nothing to be ashamed of or anything, worry is a completely natural thing. i hope things sort themselves out for you. love you baby
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Amazing
BEAUTIFUL!!!
I love the verse
'Please be careful...
for the strands in my heart are fragile...
and I know not how much they can take'
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this is really kool and really sweet, i thought a poem was expressing your feelings and emotions into words? which is what you done? so it is a poem, and a very gd one, its really sweet, i really liked the lines
"if I could be given as a pet
it would be to you"
i thought this was lovely, you must really care for this person, i hope it works out well for you
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I Love You
I'm glad you've accepted yourself for who you are and I'm glad you wrote another poem. =) I love you and also your poems for they are so deep and beautiful. this was no exception. Please IM me and update me on how everything is. You can tell me on myspace also if you would prefer.
I will always love you and I've replaced people. If they that important, you will come back to them and they may think they replaced you. Smile, breathe and let your life fit into place =)
If only I would take my own advice
Love and Light my dear friend,
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wow this is very very very very looooong! but i did manage to pull through and force myself to read the rest of it. and i am glad i did. i know how you feel. you may like the person but inner feelings and thoughts cloud your inner intentions. you really expressed your emotions well in your poem. your personal insight was well planned and thought you through this and i have to say it is brilliant. i loved the words you used so perfect! keep writting you are an excellent writer!
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