It been four years since you past away
But my mind, my mind have the thought of its own
I try to forget, but no matter what I do or what I say
It always reminded me of you
People always say the wound will heal on it's own, as long as you give it a time
But it's have been four years now
Four year, I have been out with many guys just want to forget about you
Four year, I have been working like crazy try to keep my mind off you
But tonight I come home
I give up on forgetting you
I love you too much to forget about you
To forget anything about you
Tonight I give up
I close the door that connect to the outside world
Leaning on the door for two minutes close my eyes get my thought together
Open my eyes walk through the living room to my bedroom
Pick my most beautiful dress the one you always love to see me in
Take a shower
Shut all the window and turn off all the light
Imagine you are there in this very room with me
I smile and said honey wait for me, I will be there with you
Turn on the gas in the kitchen
Let the gas flow into the living room
Gas smell turn stronger and stronger
My eyes become heavier and heavier
I can hear my heart beat slower and slower
Then I see you, smiling and held your hand open
I knew right there and then I want to be here
Be here with you
Held you tight I can see my body getting weaker and weaker
But I getting stronger and stronger
Without another thought I go with you not looking back and without regrets
I know I was in a better place
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Written January 11th, 2006
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This is really good.. It was full of emotion and beautifully written and it was just so sad.. You did a great job with this, keep up the good work.. Thanks for entering and good luck
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this poem is very sad because it so full of emotions
nice still *cries* bitter-sweet ..'when you smile'
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This was good. I havent read a poem yet about suicide through gas. Very original. I noticed a few typos though, mostly 'S's where there should have been, but werent. Other than that, great. Good luck in the contest!
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wow dreamer this is good kinda sad but really good way to go xxlorren
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Dreamer are you sure you okay. This poem is very good but it like a story too and the words/emtion you put in this poem seriously sound like you are going to do it. It scare me. I really hope you okay and i really do hope this is just a poem. But anyway this poem is amazing real and just amazing keep your head held up high. Love you and hope you well
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Omg...you really did scare me too.I usually read poems with a solemn expression on my face but this?While reading this I had a terrified look on my face,wondering what I might end up reading about this suicide.If this is true,then please stick around for as long as life allows you to live.If you ever need to talk,you know my msn,ok?You're my friend and I don't want you to do anything like this.Anyways,amazing poem you got there.
*hugs*
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omg dreamer! Yeah this one has me a little worried. You sure your okay? Wow this reads more like a story but I couldn't take my eyes away. It really draws you in. I don't know, just the way you write I guess.....sounds like you had thought everything through. Captivating!
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lol, nothing to be afraid of. lately i just thinking about the dead alots but i not...... i only thinks my school i have to do the report on the sucide so i just write one out. Not to fear I think :?
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Bravo!
This is a very poignant piece! Full of emotion! Bravo! (I must admit you are frightening me just a bit however!)
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