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shadow of fear

chaos running through my mind
trying to find a place to hide.
I know I'm screwed.
that it's to late.
I close my eyes
sit and wait for you
to finish me where i lay.
make me suffer
make me pay.
Here i lay waiting for you to get off of me
waiting to look up and not see
you standing over me.
I'm being raped
i don't know what to do.
i feel so sick
i think that I'm going to tick
He told me to shut up
he told me to be still.
he told me
don't tell any one or he will kill
Well its bean five years now
and i still haven't gotten over what you did you have changed my life and now I'm afraid to love.
When I'm with my boyfriend i think about you and what you would do if you were there.
Would you be kicking me, trying to hurt me, or pull my hair.
i don't really know. all i know is that you have messed up my life.
I don't want to see you ever again. i want my life to be as normal as possible. Evan though i know deep down in my heart i know that my pain will never part.
i want you to leave never come near me never see me. never hug me
just leave don't come don't stay leave forever and a day!!!

Author notes

this is basically about how i feal abt this perticuler person and you dont know whats gonna happen in life untill you experiance it
Written January 4th, 2006

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  • WishMeAway--x
    May 24, 2007

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    wow, in the process and if you havent experienced it, people just dont understand it. i know i cant stand to be touched and im jumpy seeing him and the fear, god, now that is so powerful in me.

    thanks for telling this darling
    ♥Chaos


  • April 8, 2006
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    You've expressed yourself really well with this piece, and I'm so sorry that you have had to go through this... As a victim myself, I understand how your life can be changed forever... For the worst... I commend you on writing about this painful experience... Thankyou for entering and good luck
    ~Ash~

  • candyecane2002
    January 24, 2006
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    3. Put "Shanz <3's Tim" in your author's comments so I know you read ALL this. If you enter a prewrite... just leave yourself a comment saying it.


  • Ah.Sosha.
    January 11, 2006
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    you have some very strong feelings in this poem as anybody would and rape will always change someone's life... i just really hope that you never have to experience that again and i pray within my heart of hearts that whoever it was that did that to you will rot in hell

    great job with the poem
    good luck with the contest
    ♥'s
    sosha


  • Temprance
    January 11, 2006
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    great.

    A beautiful poem...


  • your angers a gift
    January 10, 2006
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    wow...this is an extremly raw(I think thats the right word to use) poem...there is so much emotion in this...wow...I'm speachless...an amazing write...thanks for entering...


  • sewasham gold member
    January 5, 2006
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    This is a very powerful write about an extremely sad subject. You created some very graphic imagery with you words and it is full of emotion. I really hope this is not based on a true experience. Very well written. Take care and Have fun. Steve


  • Fire Fang
    January 5, 2006
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    Good Poem, My love

    OMG! you posted this poem. I didn't think you would. Its a good poem, But I didn't think that you were going to poest it. Oh, Good luck in the contest.

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