i'm the sympathy

it feels good to know
the one person i thought i could pour my heart into is just simply giving up
and i thought i could hold you responsible
i thought i could tell you this was friendship
but what is it when all i am is a sympathy vote?
a simple tally to even the score
you said i was someone to you a best friend in times
but then against my throat you hold the knife
of contempt and treason

and yet i've forgiven and forgotten so many times i can't keep track anymore
this town is hell
and when you're alone it only seems a little lonelier than all the times i had with you
i've always been second best
and though you reassured me that i was the bast
i still knew
that somewhere in you you were only giving me the sympathy vote

i've always been the lonely one
counting seconds till someone calls
and been counting days now and my head only hurts more
each time with the ticking of my lonely heart
you forgave me when i said that i was sorry when i said that i had nothing when i said i had everything i could have ever asked
and you were there, or were you?
when i sobbed because of a love i thought i'd lost
and the time when i was lying dead on the side of the road
yeah, you were there too, or were you?

the car is swerving but i'm still going faster
i just don't see
this whole thing is a mess
i'm falling to what we never thought that we would be
and we made remarks stating our predictions
for actions and words to come, but we didn't follow
i promised not to love and you told me that you'd never either
but here we are
two fools of the same forgetting who we used to be
so i'm only asking
a simple favor, a task that i know you could ask of me
to call
just every once and a whole to catch up on current times
to relish in our old minds
just tell me you'll call.