I pound the table.
The others look around,
then carry on with their business.
Anger swirls inside me
Guilt has risen up.
Months. Thatīs how old.
Months...and still the effect.
I read my own words..
The soft whispered thanks.
The burning words on the screen.
I had once called her my angel
and now she is my sin.
In my head. Burning me down.
ripping apart my soul
and once again i am angry at her.
Itīs not even her fault.
She wrote them for me
When we were angel and devil.
Ying and Yang.
MY heart and soul.
But that is no more...
Right?
sheīs not mine anymore...
right?
I have Charli now...
Right?
No... i donīt.
Do i? We argue to much
I feel like weīre falling apart.
My soul is tortured.
my heart is torn.
and here i am again.
Falling in a spiral
on and on and on.
And She tells me that i hurt her
"so what are you going with me?"
Or is your love really that much...
But why am i diverging...
I suppose itīs all relevant.
but i canīt let her read this.
For she will think i love her still.
But my Charli is my only one.
Despite the burning Guilt.
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Ok....this is relevant though confusing, and my emotuions are written on this page. Say wot u like about this, but to be honest, iīm not fussed. If u think it sux...i dnt care. if u think its good, Thanks! XD
Written December 22nd, 2005
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U bullshit.... " I've had my moments where i feel like we are falling apart. and it kills me to think that. " Can't of killed you that much. "lobe you!?!?!?! LOVE YOU!!! i LOVE YOU!!" - Thats just one big stupid lie..... you didn't love me..... but whatever..... i cant change anything......
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LOl oh ok... well... *shrug* wat am i sposed to fink?? and i doubt things....but... yeah thats me, espec as i had a big feeling something bad was gonna happen. I didn't know we had an arg moment??? hehe i like that arg moment... umm diverging anyway... yeah im just an "arg"y person...
ah well.., it kills me to think that aswell....but were not!!...anway... still need to tlk to u though.... love you xx
Edited on Dec 26, 1:42 p.m. because 'I added more again!! (second time )'.
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lobe you!?!?!?! LOVE YOU!!! i LOVE YOU!!
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you guys have REALLY gotta start letting me explain b4 u jump to conclusions!!
i read some of Newra's old poetry, and i got angry at her and myself. Her for keeping those words, and myself for wot i did to her, that explains the guilt!! and so i jst rote this down. Also me and chii had a small Arg moment while i was writing this. I've had my moments where i feel like we are falling apart. and it kills me to think that. and i needed you to know that Darlin'.
I lobe you Charli, don't ever and i mean EVER doubt that.
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Chris , she knows i'd read it and that was probably the point.
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gemma wat do u thinku r doing u do know charlie has read his and she is realy upset this isnt helping things -
*fails at not worrying*
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OK very confuzzled.... i suppose i really dont wanna know.... and.... is there really any point getting worried about it?? I shall just try forget about it, nd we dont argue alot anymore, when we did it was just a shite week...? And yeah we hurt each but we both already know that, and why do u doubt how much I love you?? And what the fuck is with the hayley part...We think you love her still aswell and she hasn't even read it? *looks worried*
Edited on Dec 22, 4:25 p.m. because ''.
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