Disgrace

I wish my eyes were shut
Then I'd have no fears
Go through life
With no hate or tears

Or if I were numb
I'd feel no pain
Never drowning in shadows
Or soaking in shame

Maybe an angel
Feeling good so much
Then I wouldn't be scared
Of love's sweet touch

Kissing me softly
With one deep breath
Sweeping me into
Eternity with all the rest

I wish I weren't
Always so alone
Everybody's something
I just want to go home

Nobody to talk to
They're all cloned and fake
And then theres me
Easy to break

They think I stand on a pedistal
Perfect picture in a frame
Theres more to it then that
Underneath the mask are imperfections and shame

Horrible things
Said and done
But nobody will listen
To them it's just fun

I hold onto my anger
Locked in a box
Chains all around it
Attached are locks

I wish there was a key
To let it all out
But instead it builds up
Exploding without a doubt

Sometimes I want to scream
So long that life escapes
Then I'd shut my eyes
I'd be the angel of disgrace