and it hurts me what I see
The pain and suffering that you feel
Since the day that you lost me.
Im in a better place now
The pain I no longer feel
I’ve been praying every day
that you believe that heaven is real
I’ve got my angel wings Mom
And I’ve been trying to fly
But there is something you should know
My wings can not lift me
Until you let me go
I Love you very much Mom
and Im always here with you
just feel my presence in your heart
with everything you do
Remember all the laughter
and the smiles that they bring
but let me go so I can fly
and try out my new wings
Ill always be here with you
no matter where you are
and every night when you look to the sky
Ill be the brightest star
When your feeling lonely
just picture this beautiful sight
It’s me up in the heavens
Just know that Im alright
Please let me go Mom
and let me fly above
always remember one thing
You’ll always have my love
Author notes
I wrote this in my daughters perspective. She commited suicide 4 months agao and its so hard to let her go. Please visit her memorial site and check out her photos of her life, when you click on phot album make sure to click open slide shoe. Thank you nicole-vance.memory-of.com/About.aspx I miss you so much baby my heart is shattered into a million pieces.
Written December 7th, 2005
A contest entry
- angst ridden, sad as hell poetry contest.....make me cry by bloodyfears.
300 points, ended March 3, 2006, 16 entries
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest
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Comments
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Oh wow...this is brilliant. Such a heartfelt write with such sincere emotion. I love this and think you captured the perceived perception really well. Thank you for commenting on my work. Best of luck to you and my warm huggs!
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This is beautiful. The loss of a child physically does not take away the love or memory of that child in our hearts. Your daughter, made a choice that YOU would have to live with, but sometimes, when our hearts are hurting, we are blind to the pain of others, what happened, is no reflection of you or her love for you, just a broken heart, taking away her own pain.
This is beautiful. My heart is hurting for you.
Criss -
Suze, this is just beautiful. I love the prospective you wrote this from too and as hard as it must be, she would probably be the happiest angel in the heavens if you would gently adhere to your advice here
It's hard for us to move on yes but I think the ones who pass before us have an even harder time when we keep them here with our grief because we can't move on.
You have my admiration for your strength and courage. Hope things are getting a little easier for you. Be Well and Be Blessed
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Beautiful!
This is beautiful. I checked out your author's page, and I'd just like to say I'm sorry to hear about your loss. It was very creative of you to approach it from her perspective, and the emotions you relayed are so strong and heartfelt. I know nothing can realy soothe such pain, but no wound truly heals without leaving scars.
Thank you for sharing this with us, and I wish you the best always!
Stacy
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This is so fulfilling to read Sue, that you have heard the voice of your child, who has gone far beyond your sight, and can only feel her in your heart and hear her voice within. Yes, Nickki is the brightest star you see above or the flower that blooms, and her presence is in every child's smile and anything that you see around you.
Be blessed,
Lencio -
Beautiful poem Sue. It says so well that our loved ones really do want us to go on. Not to forget them, never! Ever. But to continue on with life so that we may be reuinited with them. I do believe that and bless you and your family always
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Sue, I can only imagine what you have been thru, but I am glad to see you trying to 'let go'. I know you never fully will, but I think this shows the tremendous power you have to heal and continue to move on. I love you sweetie, and think of you constantly. Athena
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I have continued to be amazed by your personal strength and courage Sue. And seeing this tells me one day you will heal from this heartache. She will never be gone, cause she lies in you.. Much Love, Catressa
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Amazing poem heart felt. bought tears to me eyes.
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Great write from a different perspective! I really like how you have used description! I know several people who have lost ones, they would really appreciate this! If you don't mind may I share it with them?
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This is amazing..a very beautiful piece. Wow i'm speechless
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That was a-maz-ing. It was beautiful...i enjoyed reading it!!!
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This poem is amazing...heartwrenching...and hopefully the tiniest bit cathartic. Beautiful...
Lorena -
this is amazing, really good and beautiful quite sad too ... love it wow i don't know what to say just that this poem is sooo very perfect keep it up x
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Wow, this is a really beautiful write. Very encouraging and uplifting. I'm glad i got to read it. It's a really good poem
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Very beautiful tribute, Sue. I know how hard the letting go can be, and I believe it must be hard on our loved ones to see us missing them so. Your strength amazes me, as it amazes Kim as well, I know. I pray for your family's continued healing, may each day bring you closer to peace.
Ben -
Moving beyond words!
Wow Sue! I am deeply moved by what you have written. I wish you had told me that you had written something. I would have read sooner.
I have not been commenting lately for anyone because of where things are for me, but you know all about that.
But I had to for you.
If nothing but to offer my encouragement of your introspection.
You and I both know the kind of place you are in and how bad it is. The fact that you can see these things and know them and feel them is good. It will eventually help you release all that holds you down so tight. You know how she feels obviously and what she wants for you.
That place is dark right now and seems to have no ending and no escape.
But look more carefully my dear sweet friend.
There is a tiny light there off in the distance.
That light is me... my soul sister.
Remember...even one tiny light is stronger than all the darkness, and...
"There isn't enough darkness in all the world to snuff out the light of one little candle." and...
"Truly, it is in darkness that one finds the light, so when we are in sorrow, then this light is nearest to all of us."
That light is me. It will NEVER go out. It will ALWAYS be there.
I will ALWAYS love you.
And the beautiful part is...as you get closer to this light...you will then start to notice all the other lights that are there for you...all the other people that love you and are reaching out and care.
You might wish from time to time to sit alone and be away from the light..and that is okay.
Just remember..no matter how much darkness you sit in...THIS light will always be visible...even if you choose to not look at that moment.
You are an incredibly beautiful writer and your words and insight touched me deeply...as do you sweet soul.
Remember honey, when you are ready...the light is not that far away....I am here..
Burning eternally.
Reach out.
I love you sweet lady!
Your Friend Forever,
Kim -
I also think they watch down upon us
and visit within our dreams, A very heartfelt
poem. sending warm thoughts your way..
Tears -
SIMPLY BEAUTIFUL AND EMOTIONLY TOUCHING
My dear sweet friend; My heart and my prayers have been with you and will never leave. This is simply beautiful! A love that will remain forever and will never let you down. My tears are misting in my eyes as I read your beautiful and heartfelt words. I'm sure that she is watching over you and you will forever have that in your life. -
Beautiful Suz...I am at a loss for words.
Deena
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Wonder write Suzanne, and good thoughts. Not much else to say except it had to be hard, but good to write this.
Great job!
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