I cut again not making a mess,
and all i am is a step closer to death,
i don't know why i do this every night,
it seems as if i like holding the knife,
I like the feeling to pain to me,
it just helps me live life you see,
because people always criticize cutters like me,
but their the reasons our pain comes to be,
I cut because i have to release pain,
and still i do this without any shame,
i don't want to tell my friends,
because they'll fear my soon end,
I don't tell my parents for they would change,
they would never accept what I've became,
i can't stop, its a bad habit to start,
but after the first cut you just become a part,
Don't judge me,
don't change me,
someday i will be free,
i will look back and pity i will see,
I hate what I've become,
but in my life I'm always shun,
i have been shun for being different,
i have been shun for being distant,
I can't make it on my own,
but even still I'm all alone,
I'm sorry for all the pain i caused,
things in life have been so quickly tossed,
I'm sorry mom, I'm sorry dad,
I'm sorry i have been so bad,
I'm sorry brother, and friends to,
i sorry this is what i choose,
I cry about it every night,
but i just can't put down the knife,
I'm sorry for you, to worry about what i might be,
but please oh please don't be sorry for me.
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Written December 2nd, 2005
A contest entry
- Anything Sad and Deep!! by WhispersFromWithin.
300 points, ended December 3, 2005, 11 entries
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this is really, reallyy good! you're a greatt writer!. i can relate to pretty much everything in this poem so it really stole my attention. it's very well written, too.
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this is very intense!! wow great no amazing job!! loved it!! keep up the great writing you are really good!
Darksoul
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This is very very good. Wow... I'm in awe. I cut, so it's hard and I don't know if you do or not, but if you don't, you can sure fool someone. It's hard to stop, really hard. It drives me crazy and I'll do ti any chance I get, some of my friends know though, not many, but some. If you do, you need to tell someone you really trust, then it helps to relinquish your pain before you use the knife. Seriously, it's a lot better than having to hide your arms forever.
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Wow, this is really good, and deep..I can relate a lot to what you're saying in this. Nice job, and good luck.
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nice...very well put...and thats coming from a recovering cutter ...nice
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