I Dunno

So this feeling is back, that one where when I am not with you I feel like we shouldn't be together. But why that makes no sense when I am with you that feeling just suddenly doesn't exist? I am confused about you and about me I know I wanna be with you and I know when I am not with you I feel like the best part of me is gone. I try and picture my life without you in it and it's just a blur nothing seems to make sense when I am with you or without you all I know is that when I'm with you I don't get that doubt or thought that "we shouldn't be together" I guess I've never really tried to actually be without you now that I think about it because your the only love, the only thing I've ever really known. Maybe I could be feeling this way because of what people are saying maybe its a million other reasons I am just so confused!!! I know I love you that I don't have to think twice about although sometimes I wish I didn't because of all the obsticles that seem impossible to get through until I look at you everything melts away. Maybe I don't want to love you because I am so scared of losing you and really having to face everything without you but I guess its a little too late for that I already do love you theres no turning back. Nobody said it was going to be easy but no one told me it was going to be this hard I guess loving someone can be just as hard even when they love you back goodness I feel so whacked!!! My emotions are everywhere my mind is working over time, going over everything we've done, everything you ever told me and trying to figure out why I would even think why we shouldn't be together all the negativity gets me when I am not with you. why is that?, am I the weak one? Do I need you more then I think? FUCK this thing people call love is one messed up thing!!!