Breaking My Silence

Six months running
Somehow everythings fine
Every new development is amazing
Every movement inspiring
How tiny he must be
You can tell by looking at me
Trying desperately to gain weight
But its not that easy for me
Severely sticken with anemia
But still he's growing normally
If you see me from behind
Its like looking at a normal thin girl
But once I turn around
The belly you see is sticking out
And you can tell that I'm still proud
Shocking as it was for him to make it this far
Even more shocked I'll be when I finally hold him
As he rests so sweetly in my arms
I don't care what anyone has to say
Nor do I need their opinions
Everyone is their own person
So what more should I care anyway
Just because I'm small does not mean anything
I can't help it that my face is too thin
Or that you can count the bones in my back
If it wasn't bad enough that I'm constantly in pain
Then being talked about due to my size is
I'll never be able to express how I'm feeling
Then again I've never tried
No one cares to listen to my feelings
Only the quiet that I convay
That makes everything seem ok
When really all I want
Is to say everything thats on my mind