I am the single thread
Trying to hold this family together
Slowly...slowly, I am breaking
Too many worries, too many problems
To attempt to mend
Too many fights, mean words exchanged
That cannot be taken back
Its not just father now
But someone else
Someone I THOUGHT I knew
I found out, that I'm not alone
When it comes to contemplating suicide
I try to be kind and understanding
So I listen to their problems
But I can only take on so much
Already, too many secrets I keep inside
Yet they are not my secrets to tell
So they just simmer inside
I don't know who to turn to
I don't want me or my family to
Be JUDGED...SHUNNED
Is there something wrong with my family?!?
Is it genetic?
Will MY kids be doomed to depression too?!?
Right now there are few people who keep me sane
If I did what I am often desperate to do
Then those are the people I will hurt
But I can't take this anymore!
TOO MUCH SADNESS!!!!
TOO MANY SECRETS!!!!
I am the single thread
That tries to keep this family together
SNAP!!!!!!!!!
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Author notes
I wrote this poem a few days ago. I was just SO depressed!! But, I blasted my music and wrote this poem.
Written November 26th, 2005
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Please please never hurt yourself, you have such a brilliant mind. I am sure you know writing is a good way to vent. good poem.
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This was very sad..all to well we find ourselves trying to keep our families together.I can really relate to this. very good
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This poem is Awsome. Are you depressed? I like the way you described yourself as a single thread. Um did this really happen to you? What i liked best about your poem was that it was sad. You just filled me with sadness.
keep writing!
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im glad you didnt cut yourself, depression is hard. i think about it sometimes, but then i couldnt write poetry and affect the many lives that i do so positively. somedays i just want to go crazy, but i try and use poetry as a balance so others no they are not alone in how they feel. And maybe my poetry will put a smile on their face and yours. i waited 30 years for something good to happen and now i am a published author and im getting an agent for my third book. peace.
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she holds love on a silver thread
Poetry the door to talking to your soul, and as you say you are the thread, nothing is your fault, just life sometimes has mean
turns, especially if your a girl , why do they pick on them I don't know , its that thread that mends that we seem to want to stretch , we have to look into their hearts , ..sad and I do
understand you , ; hold on to that thread , show them you are love , sometimes the truth has to be said , to heal ..time does heal and then forgiveness makes love greater ,, it should be that way anyways ...
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This is a powerful poem, with a strong voice and a good flow. It carries a sense of despair throughout, and is, I feel, thought-provoking. A good read, and well-written
One point to note/amend:
"I don't want my family too": "too" should be "to"
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This was so sad, all this weight has been thrown on you to support the family. Everyone has secrets, but from the way you wrote this it sounds like you live in a house full of them. Like you're other poem, this seems to havr a change of events that are slowly beginning to destroy you. (wow I sound depressing today) Awesome job once again and I hope you don't think I'm weird commenting on all your stuff. I just like reading it.....
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listen lisa i don't care what time it is u can drve yourself over to my house and stay for awhile cause i don't think i caould take knowing that if you had just talked to us you might still be here (if you had found the knife) that was just scary lisa u shouldn't be that far gone u have so many friends who would not just see it as an obligation but as an honor to help u with any problems u may have just remember that okay promise that you will remember that before u do anything rash ok ?
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*sniffle, sniffle* I'm here if you need me.
Schmitty
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