Standing there holding the hand of that little boy
The boy who was me twelve long years ago...
The boy who had been neglected and forgotten about...
The boy who just wanted someone to notice him....
Holding his hand, reassuring him everything was alright
Comforting him and standing by him like no one else had
Starring into his blue eyes that was filled with such pain
Being the voice that he didn't have, speaking for him.
Being surrounded by the people who have influenced my life
Joining hands and creating a circle around me and the boy
The people who told me that they loved me, but never backed it up
The people who caused me grief and sadness and pain and anger
Sadness and grief of my life surrounding me
As the pain and emotions fill me up inside
Almost to a point of being unable to stand it
Just wanting to scream and let it all go….
A bright light shines down onto me from above
The whitest, purest light that no human has ever seen
A light mixed with God’s mercy and power and love
The light of forgiveness, shinning onto my pain
Letting go of all my emotions that have filled my life
A deep sigh, letting the pain flow out of me
Realizing that the past can’t be changed
Realizing the problems aren’t my fault
Finally… able to forgive myself.
Author notes
Part 1: allpoetry.com/Poem/1650987
This is a second part to my first poem. My counselor and I were talking about this and so I was inspired to write this poem. It's all 100% personal so if you don't get it, that's probably why. I'd encourage you to read part 1 and then reread part 2 because it might make more sense. Oh, and I realize the first 2 stanzas are the same.
Written November 24th, 2005
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Oah, this is so touching and heartrenching.
It really grabbed ahold of my heart and i could feel the emotions screaming from it.
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yes wat an inspiring moment 'tis, when one is able to let go... forget the past, and take God's hand...
sumday ill let go to... forget the past... enjoy the present...
wonderful emotion! really well written and epressed... loved the imagery... *ponders on forgivness...* yis im ready...
mushy -
i think it is more spiritully written.But part 1 remains my favourite.I do like the way hope comes in light squalls in the end.If it weren't for the last verse i think the poem would have been different in meaning:it captures a moment of spiritual beauty
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:'( It makes me so happy that I am about to cry! Amaising.
hehheheeheeh. It makes me so happpy to read this!!!!!
Gracie -
AHHH! Tim! I nearly cried when I read this! The fact that you can be this honest with us really touches me. It's reassuring that you let go of the past and move on. I'm also glad that you told me all of this before and I will always be here for you, man! ^_^
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that's so beautiful... yeah i just read part one and you put the link in for part two so i decided to check it out. this really is a beautiful write, tim. it gave me a happy feeling especially after the sadness of part one. You express yourself so well. it's truly amazing. you're a really talented writer. Excellent write, once again.
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