Relization

My life to me is so wonderful,
I have learned some lessons,
I have to be thankful,
I have my days like anyone else,
Were I sit down and get mad over life its self,
Trying to figure were I’ve gone wrong,
And if I can fix it before the goods gone,
The more I think about my life today,
The harder it gets to just sit and pray,
To take the law into my own hand,
Is the way I see to make the pain end,
To long I have watched my mother go under,
My brothers get caught up in all the shit drama,
Lies, Family feuds, and words that are broken,
People walking over me, that’s why I’am still smokin,
But it’s within myself were the fire is burning,
Can’t blame my teachers, family.... or earning,
The worst battles are fought within,
And they are the ones that are the hardest to win,
Trust in myself, and good things will follow?
That is one thing I just can’t swallow,
Its up to me to allow things to sink in,
I need time with god, to forgive me of sin,
For I no inside he can set me free,
But to allow him to do so is what I need,
For now ima keep livin this way,
Saying "fuck the world" let me be mad today,
Because I no in my heart that when the days done,
I will have learned a new lesson from the almighty one,
Everyone has there really bad days,
When they want things to just go their own way,
But sometimes “our own way” isn’t right,
And it is a struggle to fight the right fight,
We get confused on what we really “need”,
And what we really “want”…blinds us to see,
So now I put my life in God’s hands,
He will give me what I need and help me understand.
As for the bad days that I often have,
I will embrace them with compassion, Rejoice and be glad,
They are there for a reason and I know its true,
But to not live in the moment is the hardest thing to do.
But its ok now…I accept all things
I have given you my life…lets see what it brings.