life at its best

Crap.That's what life is.
at its best is only for a moment till it falls again.
it never stays up.
not these days.

you may always rise but with rising there must be falling.
what goes up...
must come down...
and its true.
i dunno how i make it through life like this but i guess its because i have friends.
friends who support me no matter what.
through the bad choice in boyfriends.
through my choices in school.
they even cause some of the trouble i get into but its okayy because.
i went with it and sometimes...
i know they didn't mean to cause it.



i have chosen a life right now...
not that i like it or anything...
but its my choice right.?
i choose to wait for a person.
now i already know that I'm gonna mess up my dating situation every time..
but i also know that i like people that i can't ever date or w/e
they all live far away.
and i know that people in Edmonton....
well
aren't like into the chick whose fat.
right.?
and its all about image now...
i don't care.
the people i like prolly don't even realize it...
and its sad.
I've chosen to not like anyone...
anymore......


so your now reading my choice in life....
i like no one.
i fall in love with no one.
i...
wait screw me man.
i know that's impossible.
because that's how we were made...
to lust after people ...
to like,love,want...
i mean i already know i WANT to be with someone...
i WANT to be held...
not like it will happen anytime soon....
and i know i LIKE people....
(not mentioning any)

Love...
now that's different cause i won't.
i don't believe in it right now...
so here's my words...
i shall live my life alone for now.
since i can't have anything...
nothing seems right..
i can't like anyone.
there's no one here for me...
maybe one day......
ill find.....
that thing everyone thinks they have..
and ill feel the least bit important....