Confessions

Ai ran her teeth up Belail's neck and nipped his earlobe as she straddled him. She couldn't believe she was doing this but she just couldn't control herself.

Placing her hands on his shoulders, she ran her teeth along his jaw line then let her lips brush against his as she spoke, "What is going to convince you that everything will be alright? How can I show you that you needn't be afraid anymore."

She caressed his cheek as she felt tears sting her eyes, struggling to hold them back. She felt so unwanted even though Belail had proved otherwise but she couldn't remove the doubt from her mind as she asked in a whisper, "Do you...love me at all?"

Belail closed his eyes and held his breath for a moment as Ai straddled him. He tried his hardest to ignore her embraces, but he couldn't. She was getting desperate enough to take it further than she'd ever dared and he had to stifle a low groan from her nipping.

Ai breathed gently against his neck as she ran her hand down his chest, asking again, "Do you?" She closed her eyes as she waited for an answer. The silence was almost unbearable. They had been together for a few years now but barely anything was coming out of their relationship. She wanted to take that extra step, despite her fear. For her whole life, she had believed that she would be the one that would be urged on further, but it was the other way around and it was difficult and...hurtful.

Belail let out a low growl from the desire welling up inside of him. It was both annoying and pleasant. His arms came up to pull Ai closer, pushing her against the hint that he craved more than she ever could realize. "Do you think I'm playing games, Ai?" he whispered. "I'm not. I hate this. Hate being afraid...Hate being reluctant...Hate hurting you. Loathe it. The only reason I haven't ended this is because it would destroy me to destroy you. You would never be able to understand the depths of these feelings I have...for you. But I can show you. I'm showing you right now."

Ai became breathless as she felt her body tense. Then she managed in a whisper, "I know...you are afraid, but...I never really believed that...you could feel...that way...about me." She brushed her lips up his neck and said, "I have been afraid. Afraid that if I was even a friend with someone...they would die. But I was proved otherwise and...now...now I love you and...even though I'm afraid...I want to be with you. I need to. And you're right, you would destroy me if you end this but..." She pushed her face into his shoulder as the tears threatened to come, "I don't know." She pulled back and looked into his eyes, holding his face with her hands, and said, "I haven't been hurt yet while being with you. I have been hurt many times before this because of who I am." Then she bowed her head as she ran her hands down to his hips, "You needn't be afraid, though I know it's easier said than done."

Belail smiled painfully and closed his eyes, still holding Ai tightly to his body. "What do you want from me, hm? You're sprouting a desire very strong inside of me, love. And you'd better be ready to handle it if you let me take you. I'd never do such things without your permission, but it's not a good idea to be turning me on like this if you're not ready."

Ai smiled and said, "Even though I am a little scared...I am ready. I am only scared because of the gang...you know. I've only felt it as pain, nothing else. But I want it from you." She blushed a little as she wrapped her arms around his neck, "I give you permission."

Belail smiled slightly and stroked her cheek tenderly before kissing her. His heart was beating a million miles a minute by now. He was so...afraid that when this was over, she would be taken from him as well. He pushed that aside, however, running his hands down over her clothes first before slipping his hands under the waistline of her pants, running his fingertips delicately over the soft flesh that resided there.

Ai gasped and dug her nails into Belail's shoulders. Her head felt so light, her head thumping as she heard her heartbeat race. She moaned as shivers were sent up her spine. It was like nothing she had ever felt before. Nothing like all the times she had been violated.

She kissed him deeply as she ran her fingers through his hair and fiddled with the hem of his trousers, sliding her fingers underneath slightly, unsure of how to go about things.

Belail almost chuckled as Ai stopped. He knew she wasn't exactly experienced and she had no idea how to go about any of this, but he would guide her. For now, he would just let her enjoy what he was doing. They could worry about him later. He'd get his pleasure from later actions anyway. 'You've no need to worry about me right now. We'll see to myself later.'

With that said, he nipped her bottom lip, tasting the sweet lifeblood that came from the simple embrace. He worked her pants down over her hips and ran his hand over her inner thighs teasingly. He then moved them to her back side, rubbing the silken skin lovingly.

Ai moaned and gasped, her eyes rolling as he teased her. It was cruel in a way but she loved that.

She nipped at his neck, hardly being able to resist. She scratched the back of his neck in pleasure, blushing a little at how easily he could do so. Even touching her was pleasure enough. Now this was extreme and made her feel as if she could faint as she seemed to lose sense of her surroundings in the moment.

Belail turned his attention to Ai's neck, kissing and nipping at it every so often before sliding her pants down further. He eased her back on the grass and kissed her once more before easing his way down to discard the piece of clothing around her feet. He then crawled back up to rid the woman of her shirt, pulling it up over her head and tossing it away as Ai finally got his own pants down over his hips.

Ai felt her heartbeat race faster than before, feeling ashamed of her body as usual. She hated it and feared that Belail would too.

She pushed his pants down further down his legs then slid her hands across his shoulders as she kissed him again. She began to wonder what he was thinking. He was going against all his fears for this and she had pushed him that far.

Rather nervously she slid her hands under his shirt and pushed it up and off of him, throwing it aside also with a smile.

"You're crazy, Ai. You're nuts. What's wrong with this, hm? Nothing I can see, that's for sure. Oh, big deal...a few scars and a bit of tainted skin. That means nothing. Not to me. I have more scars than you and Rose put together and Melan's skin is more tainted than anyone else I know. Now stop that damned nonsense. You have a body of one of those...super models you told me about in that other world. Yeah." Belail chuckled before kissing her again, running his hands across her flesh tenderly.

Ai shuddered at his touch again as she pondered over what he said. Did he really think that? It was hard to believe but he was a very honest person.

"Super...model?" she asked shyly once he pulled away a little. It seemed outrageous to her. Then she held the back of his head as she kissed him again, running her tongue along his fangs affectionately. She was grateful that her scars and rape meant nothing to him though she could never really comprehend why.

Why WOULD it mean anything to me? It's only a few marks...some things on the body. The body doesn't mean as much as what is inside that body. I look at the person...not the body. How materialistic do you think I am?' He nipped her tongue a little playfully before moving down to kiss her chest, running his hands over the soft mounds of flesh that resided there.

Ai gasped and gripped the ground with a hand as she arched her back slightly. She could barely reply back as she said, "I can't...help it though." She felt her body tense as her head spun and her pulse thumped through her temples. It was so exhilarating as she could only hold his head in place as she stroked his back, feeling as if she were in shock.

Belail ran his tongue and lips over each mound and nub gently, smirking each time Ai arched her back in pleasure. 'I swear I'm going to get you to quit acting like you're ugly because of a few scars. If you're ugly, I must be look like a hell hound.'

Ai giggled and ran her fingers through his hair again and said, "Like hell you look like a hell hound. You look nothing like one." She brushed a few strands of hair from her face, moaning as he continued to pleasure her.

"Though...I challenge you to...make me feel...differently about myself," She smiled as she said between quickened breaths.

Belail nipped one of the hardened nubs with his fangs affectionately. 'Like I said...if you're going to consider yourself ugly just because you have scars, then I have to be one hundred times uglier than you are.'

He slowly made his way downward, kissing and nipping as he went and lightly dragging his claws down Ai's sides. When he got down between her legs, he knew instantly that she would be embarrassed and possibly even a little nervous. However, he went slowly, caressing her inner thighs first and lightly running a hand over her mound every now and then. Her scent was starting to intoxicate him, however.

Ai started to feel her body tingling with pleasure though she was suddenly feeling slightly afraid, though she had expected it. She knew it would be difficult to overcome but there was no other way of overcoming it anyway. Besides, this was different because she WANTED Belail to do it.

She closed her eyes as he continued to caress her and felt her body giving way. Her lungs suddenly felt constricted and she moaned as she arched her back a few times, giving in to his caresses. She shook her head from side to side as she pondered on what he had said and replied, "You're crazy, you know that? You are nowhere NEAR ugly." She was about to say that she was but held her tongue, though she knew he probably heard anyway.

Belail let his breath caress the tender flesh between her thighs teasingly before smirking. 'You know...if you keep that up, Ai...I'm going to START acting materialistic. If I'm not ugly, then that must mean you're gorgeous. Even Rose is really picky on who she's attracted to! Can't you see what we do! Damn it, woman! Either believe me, or I'll start treating you the way you feel and see how that works!' He knew it was slightly cruel, but he just wanted to get his point across.

Slowly, he let a finger slide in between the folds that hid away her womanhood. He gradually started moving it in and out at a steady pace, making sure to watch her closely in case he caused any pain.

Ai was about to reply back but then a loud cry of pleasure and euphoria escaped from her lips.

"Hell!" she gasped, "Oh my...gosh!" She clawed the ground with her nails as her wings tensed and retracted a little. She tilted her head to the side, keeping her eyes closed as she did so. She could barely concentrate on anything else but the pleasure and before she realised it, she was moaning quite loudly in absolute bliss.

Belail closed his eyes, listening to the music coming to his ears silently. He smiled as he soon added another finger and quickened his pace a little. As she arched her back once more he smirked; it was obvious that she had a little love for pain because he soon noticed the tinge of red mixed in with her sweet juices. When that was noticeable, he stopped, slowly easing out his fingers and popping them into his mouth.

If he could have purred, he probably would have. 'Do you know how sweet you taste, love?' he whispered mentally as if to tease her.

Ai blushed considerably as she panted then said between heavy breaths, "I...wouldn't know." She felt quite exhausted but wanted more desperately.

"You're not...stopping are you?" she asked, her blush darkening.

Belail smiled up at her. "You're bleeding. I can't go any further while you're wounded. I can, however..." He trailed off and dipped his face down to her fold, running his tongue between them teasingly.

Ai held her breath, trying to prevent herself from moaning but without avail. She opened her mouth to speak but only her moans and cries came. She gripped the ground by either side of her head as she felt her body tingle and the blood cut off from her stomach, it felt as if all her energy had flown out of her. She really wondered if she deserved such pleasure but pushed her thoughts aside.

Belail continue to swirl his tongue about the inside of her folds tenderly, because paying more attention to the nub there as well. He risked nipped gently at it, just to see how much pain his newest lover could take. He hadn't had a lover with a very high pain tolerance yet. He hadn't gotten that far with Rose.

When he heard that one thought, he mentally rolled his eyes. 'You don't deserve this, hm? Should I stop?'

"No no! Oh I mean..." she blushed as she pushed her fringe from her face, "I...I couldn't help but think that. It just...popped into my head." She tried to slow her quickened breaths then said, "Gosh I just..." She shook her head slowly as she couldn't speak anymore. Instead she spoke through thoughts, 'I just feel so low about myself as you know and found it hard enough to believe that someone would like me, let alone...wanting to be intimate. It's...maddening but I'm happy and grateful for it.' She opened her eyes as she looked at Belail, 'I...don't want you to stop.'

Belail grinned wickedly before continuing on with the lovely work set before him. He flicked is tongue faster about the walls of her inner core before sliding his fingers in slowly, never moving them too much in case he may scratch. He really enjoyed giving this to the women he loved. He just never thought this day would come for himself and Ai.

Ai closed her eyes as they rolled and she arched her back involuntarily. She found herself out of breath again as her lungs seemed to become constricted. Before she could never have imagined that she could possibly enjoy intimacy but Belail really proved her wrong.

She just wanted to grab him and kiss him again, it was insane. She let out a cry as he continued to pleasure her endlessly.

Belail continued ever faster as Ai arched herself against his face. He was glad to give her so much pleasure and soon tested her to see how many fingers she could handle by entering a third, continuing to rove her flesh with his tongue as he did so. 'I'm making sure you're ready for me, love. No worries. If it hurts at all, I want you to tell me immediately.'

Ai propped herself up onto her elbows, her head lolling as she breathed quickly. It didn't hurt at all, it was only absolute ecstasy. Perspiration started on her forehead as she let her head drop back, tired from trying to lift it.

Watching Ai carefully, Belail added a fourth finger and moved slowly. She seemed to be able to take it quite well. He smiled up at her quietly. 'Don't exert yourself, love. Just relax as much as possible.'

Ai nodded and laid back down on the grass. She wondered what he would do next and it was making her nervous and excited.

Still, nothing seemed to hurt, it just gave her further pleasure and she couldn't held but giggle tiredly as she thought back to years before. She no way expected anything like this.

Soon enough, Belail eased all fingers out and slowly made his way over her, smiling slightly. He bent down to kiss her lips softly before running his kisses down her neck and nipped at her earlobe. He allowed his lower regions to rub against her own wantonly. "Ready, love?" he whispered into her ear teasingly, letting his hot breath lap against her flesh.

Ai smiled as she said, "Definitely," taking pleasure in his breath on her neck. She was surprised at her own confident voice as she said it and wrapped her arms around his neck and kissed him again, unable to resist nipping his lip.

Belail smiled and chuckled a little as he tried to find what he was looking for. He closed his eyes tightly as he did, letting out a low groan as he delved deeply into his lover, starting to move very slowly, in case of any discomfort Ai might've been feeling.

Ai found herself arching again, clinging onto Belail's back as she groaned. It was even more pleasurable than before. She bit his shoulder hard as she held onto him, scratching his back also. She knew what was bound to have a release and couldn't wait for it.

Belail arched his back in turn, letting out a louder groan as he felt the burning on his skin. Gods, he could certainly get used to this! He'd never had a lover that expressed pleasure in such wonderful ways. He smiled to himself as he let his hands roam her flesh while he moved, gradually scratching in various places lightly at first.

Ai giggled as he scratched her and she, in turn, scratched him, biting him once again, accidentally drawing blood. A slight blush rose in her cheeks but could barely concentrate to ponder on what she had done.

Belail growled softly, closing his eyes in pleasure as Ai's fangs pierced his flesh and drew blood. He absolutely loved that. 'Don't forget, love...It's nearly impossible o actually 'hurt' me in the sense of the word. Be as rough as you like. It will make this more so enjoyable for me.'

Ai smiled at that as her blush faded away. As he moved over her she dug her nails deep into his skin, drawing blood also. She wasn't holding back now. She slid her hand down his chest as she kissed his neck and scratched him hard again. Blood started to trickle from his shoulder wound and she licked it up without thinking, arousing her senses. Thankfully it wasn't her cannibalistic ones.

Instead she bit him again, closer to his neck and smiled at his groans.

Ai's touches were exciting him beyond belief and he soon began to grind his hips faster, tracing the inner walls of her core almost violently. He was moaning as he went from the burning all over his body and the pleasure he obtained from his lover's body. This was so much, and yet not enough. His claws started to dig into Ai's flesh heatedly as he move, leaving long claw marks across her thighs and back. 'I hope you won't mind a few more scars...that actually do mean something to me.'

Ai replied back mentally as she groaned loudly, 'I don't mind at all because...they'll be from something good rather than bad.'

She continued to scratch deeper and harder as Belail roughened his movements, crying out in pain and in pleasure.

Belail was starting to lose his coherent thought by now; his mind reeling from the pleasure of Ai's caress and of the movements he was making. He moaned softly before allowing his fangs to dig into Ai's shoulder drawing blood, which Belail lapped up greedily. His movements quickened all the more and he began to feel light-headed. Everything was just so...wonderful.

Ai held herself tightly against Belail as her cries became louder. She felt as if she had butterflies in her stomach and as if she was in a slight drunken state, her head becoming lighter as time passed. She could smell the perspiration from the both of them and it intoxicated her.

She ran her hands down Belail�s sides and dug her nails deep into his skin as she wrapped her legs around him. The dizziness increased rapidly, wishing none of it would end.

Belail was to the point where he was slamming himself against Ai now, completely unaware of how far he was going. If he had been thinking, he wouldn't have started this, since he didn't think anyone had the kind of pain tolerance he did. However, perhaps he would be proven wrong.

His nails dragged across Ai's flesh passionately, biting down on her lower lip and suckling the sweet lifeblood that flowed there. Both of them were bleeding profusely by now and both were loving it. Release was so close, and yet neither of them wanted it to end. Of course, eventually, both of them would pass out from loss of blood; that was the only thing the demon was aware of by now.

Ai was screaming in pain and euphoria, loving every moment of it. She was become tired but she didn't care. She scraped her fangs across his lips and bit his tongue, taking in the blood also. She really hadn't believed she could enjoy so much pain.

Without thinking she started pleading with him to be rougher and harder with her, not caring about the bruising that started to appear on her body. She bit his earlobe and scratched behind it as she pulled at his hair affectionately and roughly then started to hit the bite wounds on her shoulder, making the blood trickle onto her as he knocked the breath out of her repeatedly.

Belail let out a fierce growl of passion as he continuously pushed himself harder and faster, just like Ai wanted. In the back of his mind, he had to wonder how this would effect the girl, but he could barely concentrate on such things while the woman was pulling at his hair, tearing at his flesh, and begging for more and more. He'd never had such a lover before and he had to believe now that he was truly blessed. Perhaps he finally had found his soulmate.

Ai shrieked louder as he did what she wished. She could feel her body rising to a climax, ready to give out. She was exhausting and loved the pain as she was slammed repeatedly. The blood from her back was noticeable now and she only just realised how much blood both were losing but she felt no real concern. It was probably soon coming to an end anyway as the nausea in her strengthened.

She bit Belail's shoulder again over the first wound, inflicting more pain than before, wanting to make every last moment count.

Belail let out a loud groan as his release started getting closer and closer. He bit down upon Ai's shoulder, growling a little as he continued his rough movements. He arched his back, moaning loudly as he finally felt himself give way; his warmth flowing through Ai's body as he collapsed against her, kissing and nipping affectionately.

Ai gasped after he released and felt her own body give out. She panted as he nipped her and she did the same as she caressed his bloodied back. Then she kissed his lips and slid her tongue into his mouth as she said mentally to him, 'Hell, I love you Belail.' She knew it sounded quite corny but like she cared. Mentally she also giggled, 'We're losing quite a lot of blood, love. You think Rose or someone will heal us when we get back?'

Belail smiled wearily as he tried to catch his breath, chuckling softly. 'I think Rose can only heal so many of these wounds...Some of them are better left unseen and unknown of...You know...the more...personal places.'

Eventually, he pulled himself out of the embrace of Ai's body and laid beside her, continuing to kiss her until they were too tired to move. 'I've never had a lover that could match my pain tolerance before...That truly is a blessing. I don't need to worry about hurting you.'

Ai smiled as she tried to calm her heartbeat down, 'I'm glad...that I can stand that much.' She glanced down at herself, admiring the scratches that littered her body, stinging at whatever touched them. She giggled as she asked rhetorically in her mind, 'I wonder if they'll ask us what we've been up to.' She looked at Belail, 'I'm am glad that you enjoyed it...I have. I never thought I could...but I did.'

Belail idly traced a few of the inflictions he had made across Ai's flesh tenderly, kissing her once more with a satisfied sort of sound. 'Rose will know right off the bat, and she won't let me hear the end of it...I'm not quite sure about the others. As much as I love that dragoness, she can be such a nuisance at times. That's one thing you don't have in common with her...Not in that way." He chuckled softly. "I guess it's just because she's so much like a sister."

Belail grinned slightly as he stroked Ai's face tenderly. "The only thing you're a nuisance for is how you think of yourself."

Ai smiled as she held her hand over his, "I'm sorry love. I just..." she closed her eyes and shook her head, "It's so hard to think differently. It's so hard to see myself worth more. I thought people were crazy to even like me as a friend. But I'm grateful that you prove me wrong." She brushed her fingertip over his lips with a sad smile, "I'm sorry for being a nuisance."

Belail stroked her back lovingly and smiled. "Oh....she admits it! FINALLY! I have proved the Great Miss Think Negatively Of Herself wrong!" He chuckled loudly, giving her an affectionate squeeze. "And you didn't think I could. Ha!"

He ran his fingers through her silken tresses lovingly before kissing her forehead, running his hands down her cheeks as he pulled back. "Rest now, love. We'll heal up after we have the energy to move."

Ai giggled at his words. She never realised how she thought about herself could make him so happy. She hadn't actually thought thinking negatively about herself was such a bother, only to herself.

She sighed as she relaxed, closing her eyes as she smiled, feeling the warmth of Belail's body against hers. She adored him more than he realised. Normally she would have blushed in case he heard but this time she didn't care at all. She loved every part of him, even his flirting and his past, she loved it all.