I believe in fate.
Though it wasn’t responsible
for leading me to her.
That desolate series of events
can be blamed on my subconscious,
and indisputably on the self-doubt
I unknowingly created there.
Sharper senses than I can fathom
alerted her of my vulnerability,
on which she greedily fed;
Her own need to dominate,
stronger, even, than my desire to let her.
She knew how to entice me,
knew the words that would keep me chained,
and she used them with unfaltering accuracy.
My fears of rejection and abandonment,
were mirrored in her words,
as she said we were in this together.
My life became indistinguishable from hers,
and I willingly twisted myself
into yet another wasted tribute to her affliction.
It lacked any decency-
Her shifty innuendos,
so simply… so, \purely\ stated,
as to make it all seem real.
I was the drowning child
she pretended to save,
only for the amused satisfaction
she earned at seeing my face,
when she let me sink.
Author notes
this is a poem about a girl i became friends with because of my neverending fear of being alone. i put up with a lot of stuff from her and she kept it coming because she knew i couldn't stop being her friend. i probably didnt need to tell you that since its pretty self-explanatory but thought that i'd add that in there.
commented on "Was My Friend" by MoonGoddess69
commented on "Memories of You" by CoffeeLover
Written October 25th, 2005
A contest entry
- Betrayal by Neon Lights.
300 points, ended October 28, 2005, 20 entries
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That is really emotional. It flowed so well and I don't think I can find anything wrong with it. I can really relate to it as I've been in the same situation recently. I'm so glad you entered this into the contest
Thanks and good luck!
~Fi~
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