Leaving The Message

I pick up the telephone and see who it is and its her
I remember the last time we talked I had made her cry
But I had to , she had to know how i felt
I pick the phone up slowly

"Hello."
She says "Hi." with her soft calming voice
I can tell she has been crying alot
"So about the other night..?" she says with remorse
"Don't worry about it there's nothing that you can do."

It seems like an eternity before anyone says anything
Then she starts again
"I told my parents.."
I breath in heavily "What did they say?"
"They think that it is my choice...But i want to know what you think to"

They way that i feel is like after getting hit in the nose
"I want to be there for you...but I'm only 16"
"But I'm so scared!! I need someone to help me. Please"
My heart sinks into shame
"I Know what I have done and I am regretting it..."

I hang up the phone before she can say anything else

The feeling of sickness rushes over me and i vomit in the bathroom

The telephone rings again
"Why?Why do you do this to me?"
shes crying now and begins again
"You said that you loved me and you would never leave me??"

I remember that it was after our first month of dating

"Things change OK. I don't have time for this I need to grow up!"
Shes crying even more heavily now then i had ever heard her cry
"Why can't you just help me?It is going to be your baby to!!"

That night they boy shot himself without even thinking
His son never ever did get to meet him
Don't let anyone tell you that you cant make it by yourself
Because you can