Tainted Doubts

Sharazon raised a hand and gingerly stroked Kira's cheek slowly as he bit down on his lower lip. Should he really be doing this? What if she said he was wonderful just so he wouldn't feel bad? What if she really didn't want or enjoy this and was only doing it because she felt obligated to? What if it really wasn't her he was taking, but actually Malise? He could feel her anxiety; how nervous she was. What if it was a fear of what he would do?

The drow heaved a sigh and pulled away from the dragoness, turning his back to her as he fought this damned inner struggle.

Kira herself had just been laying under Sharazon, waiting for their first union in so many years to begin. However, when she saw the drow's troubled look and when he pulled away from her, she felt as if she had already done something wrong. She slowly pushed herself up into a sitting position on the bed and moved to envelope Sharazon's waist with her arms. "Did I do something wrong?"

Sharazon turned his head slightly upon feeling the contact with the woman's flesh. He closed his eyes for a moment and shook his head, silver tresses flowing about his face. "No...It's not that," he said softly before he turned to look at her, pulling her hands back and holding them in his own. "Are you...you?"

Kira blinked at this and tilted her head. "Am I me? What do you mean by that?"

Sharazon let go of her hands and turned away again with another sigh. "Nevermind. Just forget it. Now isn't the right time."

Kira's expression grew disappointed. She'd been waiting for this night for so long and now Sharazon was backing out? Sharazon, who had once been a whore? Backing out of finally taking her as his own again? It made no sense! "But...why? Why would you say that? I know how much you-"

"That isn't the point!" the drow snapped, cutting Kira off in mid sentence.

The dragoness drew back slightly, hurt by the way he had barked at her. In fact, it hurt so much, tears stung at her eyes. He hadn't once snapped at her during this relationship of Master and Pet; not once. "I'm sorry..." she whispered almost inaudibly and drew away from him, thinking it best to leave him be.

Sharazon closed his eyes painfully, dragging a hand forcefully through his metallic locks before moving closer to her and taking the naked woman in his arms. "No...I'm sorry. I had no right to do that. I didn't mean it." He kissed her forehead before running a hand tenderly through her silken tresses and pulling her tightly against him. "I guess I just can't seem to get over the fact that...I took you...forcefully...the first time. Without your permission, I tainted you and showed you things you should have never been shown. I took your innocence, tainted another soul..." His voice broke off and he closed his eyes again as tears stung his eyes.

Kira hugged him close to her and let his head rest on her shoulder. "That doesn't matter anymore. You didn't even hurt me! I enjoyed it; enjoyed being with you in such intimate ways...making me feel closer to you each time you showed me something new...I loved being close to you!"

"How can I really know that?" Sharazon whispered in a broken manner. "Malise was CONTROLLING you! That demoness is the only reason you went through it; because you had no choice! I know you and I know you don't like to hurt the ones you care for. You said I was 'wonderful' those weeks back...but could you really have meant it? Maybe you just said that! Maybe Malise is controlling you right now! I wouldn't know the difference!"

Kira cupping Sharazon's face with her hands and brought it to face her own. Now she understood; he was afraid. He was afraid that what had happened was a lie; that if he took her again, she wouldn't be willing. He was afraid it was Malise and not her that really wanted his touch. "Sharazon," she whispered softly, "I love you. I always have, even before...our first union, I loved you. I wasn't unwilling...I DID have a choice...I could have told you to stop, but...you made me feel so complete. What happened between us back then meant and still means more to me than you realize. Malise is not in control and she is not influencing me. You really were wonderful. I really do want this. Honestly, I've wanted this...ever since this relationship started. If you had decided to take me then, I would've been just as willing as I am now."

The dragoness stroked the drow's cheeks tenderly before softly kissing his lips. "You didn't 'taint' me. The only thing that is tainting this relationship now is your doubt in me. I'm still just as innocent as I was back then. I still act innocent, don't I? I just know a little more about sexual activity." She shrugged lightly. "So what? That doesn't change anything."

Sharazon kept his silence as he looked deeply into her crimson gaze. Was it really her? Was his fear false? How could he really be sure?

Kira kissed him again, longer and deeper this time. "My body, Sharazon...it's aching for you. It's been aching for you for years...I've missed you ever since I left you the first time...I cried all through that night that I ran away. I dreamt of our intimacy for months and ached for your silken touch once more...Do you really think I'm willing to give this chance up now after so long of waiting? If you don't take me...then I swear to Gods that I will take you." She looked at him seriously, a fire glowing in her eyes.

The dragoness bent close to Sharazon's ear. "That may not be my place, but I'd do anything to feel you inside of me again...even if I get punished after," she whispered heatedly.

Sharazon felt himself harden immediately after hearing Kira's words and he looked down at her with an unsure smirk. "Take ME? Now you're definitely not sounding like yourself, Poppet."

Kira let her hands run down over his smooth body slowly as she looked into his eyes, which were burning with desire, though his fear and possibly even his curiosity held him back. "Even the innocent can be naughty sometimes, can't they? After all...playing with a submissive all of the time is boring and if I want to be a good pet, I think I have to be daring sometimes, right? After all, how are we going to get what we want with your fear standing in your way, hm?" She smiled softly at him before kissing him wantonly, grabbing his hips, digging her nails into the silken flesh, and pulling him tightly against her lower regions.

Sharazon let out a half moan, half sigh of pleasure within the kiss as their tongues swirled together in unison. The drow soon found himself forced down on the bed and straddled as well. He hated to admit it, but this was a major turn on. He hadn't thought that Kira could be so demanding when it came to sexual affairs because of her personality, but he supposed he was wrong. Perhaps their first affair had influenced her in that way, or maybe...

'It isn't Malise influencing me, so shut up and enjoy this, or I'll have to tease you into oblivion,' Kira stated firmly in his mind.

The drow didn't have a chance to reply before the dragoness let herself sink down upon his manhood slowly, giving a soft moan as she did so. It'd been so long, she'd forgotten how absolutely blissful it felt to have him inside of her. When she started to move, she had to will self control over herself, else she would have already had her release. Silently, she hoped that this would vanquish any doubts and fear Sharazon had of taking her. She didn't care about anything else in those moments, besides the immense pleasure they were both receiving.